Sunday, November 30, 2008

Holiday Aftermath

The Thanksgiving Holiday was not forgiving to my weight-loss. Today was weigh in day and I had a four pound suprise. Oh well, I just get to stick very close to the plan this week.

I have spent my weekend alone and in the house. I have not left once since I got home from work on Wednesday. I was thinking how I should be grateful for the alone time. There is probably a very good chance that I will not have another Thanksgiving alone like this.  Today I am going to finish my office, take my exam, work on my group project that no one else in my group seems to be doing.  I also need to get the plan for the week laid out.  I am on the countdown till Christmas and The Boy's return!!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Is it really here?

It hasn't hit me yet that I have 4 days off. I just can't grasp this concept of TIME OFF!!!

I need to clean the house and at least bake the cake tonight so I can ice it tomorrow. Thank goodness this year's get together is very small. Just the parental units and myself. The Boy is in Montreal with his family, my friends are all with their families and so I am with the immediate family only. It is just the way I want it. A favorite food dinner, football on the TV and naps. Nothing could be better. :)

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Christmas Gift Block

Well I figure the Christmas station is on the radio now, I am seeing the decorations, and I saw my first Lexus commercial tonight so it is time to start thinking about what to get everyone for Christmas.

Dad is done, Mom is easy, my cousins' kids will be fun and easy, friends are always booze and kitchen stuff, The Boy is a mystery. What am I gonna get him!!! Since we live apart now, it is harder to know what he needs. He loves sushi and making it but not sure if he would do that when I am not there. I found some really neat stuff on that front but it will probably collect dust at his apartment. He will get clothes thta I am sure, but there has to be something special too. I just have to make sure I keep myself in check. :)

Friday, November 21, 2008

Dear Google Reader,

Oh please stop updating! Your lovely green icon on my Google toolbar that alerts me to new blog postings is driving me crazy. I love my blog lists and I simply can not wait to read the newest posts. However, this is starting to interfere with my life! I really need to do some work today and earn my salary. You must stop showing green every five minutes. You and I both know I lack the willpower to wait until I get out of the office to read your enjoying musings. Please, I beg you, just a break during the day, at night I am all yours. Oops, there you go again, green...I am off to indulge! Maybe tomorrow we try again?

Lovingly yours,

D

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Some weeks I don't fee like working

I should REALLY be working today but I am just not in the mood. It isn't that I don't have a ton to do, but none of it has any firm deadlines so I am taking my time.

Instead of working and trying to do my best at my job, I decided to clean the Mac up, organize my bookmarks and my Google Reader feeds. Everything is so together now and organized. Too bad, my office looks like a bomb hit it.

So on Sunday, I chopped my hair off because I was bored with the long hair. I just felt frumpy and honestly, like a little kid. With the shorter style I feel a lot more confident. It also seriously cuts down on the time it takes in the morning. With the extra time, I can actually do my make up at the house and not at the office. Next step is to go shopping and get a few things for winter.

With the economy like it is, I just hate spending money on things that aren't a necessity. However, I don't want to go cheap on necessities just to save a little bit of money. I strongly believe that you spend the money on the basics because they last and never go out of style. Since I have a rare free weekend, I might venture out to start eyeing what I want.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Baby Steps

15 minutes will change your mood.

I found the timer my mom made me use when I was supposed to clean my room and procrastinated. She would set it and make me clean for X number of minutes. It was supposed to make me clean and keep cleaning when it went off. Or at least make me feel that there was a definite end to the large task in front of me.

So I set the timer for 15 minutes and set out to clean the kitchen. 15 minute done and it looks a little better. I will probably do a few more 15 minute sessions tonight. 4 will make an hour. :)

I do feel better doing that and feel like I am getting things done. I also want to plan next week and see if the second week is the charm. Another plus was that one of the big things weighing on my mind, resolved itself while I was cleaning. There is one stress lifted.

I am WEAK

I hate stress....I really, really do. Can't a girl catch a break!!!

The Boy left this week, that sucks and I am not adjusting as well as I hoped I would. I probably would adjust better if the other things were a little less in my life right now.

Work is crazy beyond crazy. I have a ton to finish up for a legal project I am working on, two employees who have been working with their heads up their butts for months on end and now all of their mistakes, wrong assumptions, and laziness is coming to light and I am having to correct the issues. The IT guy thinks it isn't his job to actually do IT and I have been doing all of that on top of everything else, he is a habitual liar and it is too the point where I don't even want him around any of our stuff so I just do it myself. Everyone is relying on me to pick up the slack and remember things for them and to be the go-to person. Well I dont' have time to be your brain....go find it yourself. I am working 13 hour days just to keep my head above water and even that isn't doing it.

The house is a complete disaster. How I keep my house is always a reflection on my mood and right now it is messy and depressing and overwhelming.

School, where I usually find my joy is just crap. I am still doing great but I have a group project to start and I haven't heard from ANYONE in my group. I am taking the lead in too many things right now that I wanted to see if anyone in my group would step up. After 2 weeks of no communication, I get my response. I just sent an email so let's see what comes of it. I just sent it and realized I probably should have CC:ed the instructor but oh well. I guess I will take my 2 quizzes and the exam today after work and then dive into the project as if I have no group and see what happens.

There is also another uncertainty weighing on me that I can not get over. I know the outcome is good and I have thought logically about it but the emotional side of me is just having issues which is causing the effect.

I know it will get better, it always does, but I have got to learn to be more proactive at coming out of these funks.