Saturday, January 31, 2009

Our Adult Date

The Boy did good! He knows my dorky obsession with the Wind Symphony and with Big Band music. On the 10th there is a wind symphony concert with big band music. He got tickets!! He is going to go and sit with me and allow me to escape in my world. I gotta find something to wear!! I have been looking for a cute dress that I can wear to work and that would still look OK out.

Seeing as how I am in Texas, The Boy seems to think that everyone goes to rodeos. OK, I admit it that I have been to a few. He on the other hand has never been so next Saturday we are going. He got in just in time to go to the Ft. Worth Stock Show. This is going to be a VERY interesting thing to take the Canadian to. We should have a good time though since he has never been and I haven't been in a while. Hopefully, I won't have to work and we can spend a little more time at the Stock Show and enjoy our first Saturday together.

I got my EEOC paper done tonight and tomorrow I get to do my little 2 page IS paper. It should be a breeze. I alos have got to get food back in this house and get it ready for Friday. I can't wait to be able to cook for someone again!

Friday, January 30, 2009

Random Thoughs

1. I loved writing....loved being the word, I am so tired of writing papers and feeling rushed in my work. I should be working on an assignment instead of blogging. Oops.

2. I really need to clean the house up on Sunday or else it isn't going to get done before The Boy gets back.

3. Oh, because of the family issues and The Boy's work, he is coming here for V Day instead of me going up there! He will be here in less than a week and will be here for 2 weeks. I am sure I will be happy once he is here but right now I have so much to do that I can't begin to look forward to it.

4. I am still adjusting to all of the things that happened last week. One minute I think I am over it and the next I am not.

5. I wonder if I will ever have a job where I don't have to work Saturdays. I WANT that! Sure I know the occasional Saturday might happen but not EVERY Saturday. I have no clue what it would be like to have 2 months of 5 day work weeks. My normal work week is 6 days. I don't even get any comp day for my Saturdays. There are other issues that make this unappealing but I won't go into them here.

6. I am starting to feel bad that I haven't been following Weight Watchers like I should.

7. I will NEVER take this courseload again while I am working full time.

8. I want to start quilting. My grandma Lucy taught me but I haven't done it in so long I am not sure I would be able to. I did find a pattern that I might try if I can find some good fabric.

9. I think I am going to have to go cold turkey on my diet coke habit.

10. I loathe Hillshire Farms commercials.

11 I need to order a Christmas tree storage bag. I wanted to have it up when The Boy got here but I think I will get him to help me put it in the attic.

12. I love shoes but I only wear my Converse.

13. I wish I had a job I could dress up for. If I wore anything but jeans to work, they would think I was interviewing. (note to self, if I start interviewing keep jeans in the car)

14. I blog lurk. I just feel weird commenting on a total stranger's life. I am slowly getting over that but it still ties into my shyness. (oh yea, it's THAT bad).

15. I feel strange blogging because my life is BORING.

16. I love Nordstroms but the economy has curtailed my shopping. :( I would like a nice new spring dress and I have a gift certificate so I might have to do a retail therapy session soon. :)

17. I am Martha Stewart in my head. In actuality I feel more like Roseanne without the weight.

18. I am getting tired.

19. My fur babies are sleeping so soundly. I love watching them when they sleep. It makes me feel so peaceful and content. I have had my 2 babies for almost 13 years. I never thought I would be a cat person but I love these two twins more than anything. They have been with me through college, through a failed marriage, through 4 houses, numerous boyfriends, and my highest and lowest points. For looking identical, they are polar opposites. Annie is shy but the caretaker. When I cry she comes running. Buster is crazy and she is an attention whore...and I wouldn't have it any other way. The thought of not having them scares me and as they get older I can't stop thinking about it sometimes. I am not sure I am ready for that day. Nothing will ever be able to replace them. Same for my puppy even though I can't have her at my house because my parents stole her. :) She is my lake trash puppy. Wow, she is almost 10 too! My babies aren't babies anymore.

20. Bed time!!!

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Back to the blogging world

I took some time off from the blog, from reading any blogs, and generally from normal life for a while there. I had been having a rough few weeks and it shows in my blog posts. I was letting stupid crap get to me and not looking at the bigger picture. Well on Wednesday night, that all came crashing down around me. My mom called around 8:30 and said she was taking my dad to the hospital and that he was pretty bad. Now for those that don’t know, my daddy is my world. He is my hero, my protector, my biggest supporter, and my everything. I dropped what I was doing and rushed out of the house to head down to Baylor and help my mom. For a while there we were not sure we would get my dad back. I was not ready to deal with that and it got shoved on my plate. It promptly shoved the trivial crap out of the way. We he woke up on Sunday morning, it was the best gift I could have and will ever get.

I am learning to put the scary thought of life without my dad behind but it isn’t as easy as I thought. It is there now as is the thought that this scenario might play itself out in some form and it won’t have as good of an ending. It scares me to death and I am trying as hard as I can to put it out of my head. Also, for a brief moment there that line of caregiver was reversed. We don’t talk about it but we both know it happened and we have to deal with that being that we are both extremely proud people.

I also started resenting everyone around me who could go on with their normal lives…the Boy included. I got pissed at people who told me to move on and get over it and acted like it never happened. Thank goodness I am getting over that too.
If anything this whole issue has taught me what is truly important in my life and what isn’t. I can’t say I am completely over it and will ever be but I think ultimately it will change me for the better.

So back to blogging and more focus on not really caring what others think about what I write. ☺

Monday, January 19, 2009

Change

So today was a Monday, just like all Mondays. I ended up at the office till about 7:30. I finally had to walk away and just say enough. Honestly, I am starting to feel like work is a prison. I just feel like I need something more. I know hard work pays off in the end, but I am tired of feeling like I am being taken advantage of. I honestly think that people think I won't for other opportunities or think about changing. I was even told last week that I am the type of person who hates change. Oh no, you must have me mistaken for someone else!!

I am all for change. I can even handle it. I mean I have had my fair share of it these past few years. What are a few more shake ups. Maybe I will get a new job, live in the same house with The Boy again, get another 4.0 (not really change but good), ace my next career test, get closer to my next school, and move on to the next chapter. Come on and bring on the change!

One more mundane news, I have been really good with my diet. I still have not eaten out AT ALL this month. It has helped me save more money. I also have limited my spending a lot. I really only purchased 2 magazines this month. That's it. :) I am starting to like this whole watching my saving account build thing. It is fun to see how much I can save.

Oh well, bedtime here. Off to sleep, get up and go to work and then head over to see some old friends after work. Yea for the power of friends.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Verdict: Productive day

Well all in all it was a productive day. I got the house straightened up and I took advantage of the nice day and cleaned out the garage. It was in desperate need. I ended up with a whole dumpster full of garbage just from there so I think I will be "borrowing" a little bit of space from the neighbor's trash bin on Thursday.

I really needed to finish my office but that will have to wait until next weekend. I did even up at Lowe's so I got the plywood I need for my bulletin board project in the office. Of course, the longer I think about it the more and more I keep changing what I want to do with it. I think I am close to having it nailed down and next weekend I can work on it.

I do need to really start diving into the school work and the other studying that I need to do. Next week is all about getting back where I need to be on my school work and getting my brain right again. I have been a little off lately in all of my work and I think I am just about back to where I need to be; it's just a matter of remembering what is important in my life and to me and making space for it.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

I couldn't leave it like that

I was getting ready to call it a day and I realized I couldn't leave a dead mouse post as the last thing.

Ok, well I have nothing to say. Let's see..weekend plans. Study!!, clean house, cook, relax. The main thing is sleep in. I have got to get my sleep schedule back on track. I am starting to go back to being a night owl and it is messing up my school and my work schedule. I need a night of good sleep but I don't think I am going to be getting that until I head up to Virginia. I can't believe I can only sleep well when I am sandwiched between the Boy and a cat. I guess when I got see the Boy I will just have to make do without the cat :)

8 more hours

I just have to work for 8 more hours then I am free for a few days.

I am freezing and I still need to take out the trash for tomorrow. I hate doing that. I also have to go out to the garage and do the job I hate to do more than anything....empty out the mouse traps. Yuck I know, but really I have to just expect it when I live at the edge of a huge field bordered by Army Corp land. Oh, this is just not what I want to do!! I know they are coming in because of the cold weather but really...all three. Come on little mice, spread your wealth among my neighbors. Just because I am the edge doesn't mean I want you all here!

Ok, time to just go do this dirty deed. And sorry, for the nature of the post.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Food and it's side effects

One of my resolutions was to get healthier this year. I know the history of my family and I know how not taking care of my self in my 20's is coming back to haunt me. I I know that weight loss will come out of that but I am following an approach that I am not on a diet but more changing the way I life my life in terms of how I view food and it's effects on me.

I do follow Weight Watchers and enjoy reading posts from others who are following. The girls that follow Weight Watcher Wednesday are all inspiration and The Mrs. is just amazing and her site is becoming one of my favorite sites.

I have noticed that after eating at home for a while now and not eating a lot of fast and processed foods that I can't tolerate them anymore. I used to ruin my week at work when we brought in pizza each week (yes, each week for clients sometimes more than once a week). I usually bring in a frozen Lean Cuisine French bread pizza but forgot this week. I ended up having 2 slices of veggie pizza and about 3o minutes later I felt awful!! I felt overly full and almost sick. I also noticed I was more moody than usual. It's amazing how much of a difference it makes. And I just realized that was the first time I have really eaten out or eaten junk food this whole month! It makes me want to keep it up.

What a week and it isn't over yet

It's been a long week. I think it is only right that this week I connected with alot of my old high school friends and work became full of high school like drama. Folks, I left that a long time ago...keep me out of it.

But on brighter news...I booked my flight for Valentine's Day. :) My technology addicted boyfriend is going to indulge my love of all things old and take me to the National Museum of American History and allow me to indulge. I have also been asked what else I would like to do on my visits there. BAD MOVE!!! I have a whole page of things I want to do. I am never going to let him come visit me because there is so much I want to do!

School started this week and I need to get back on the ball. I am thankfully not working at all this weekend so hopefully I can get my office cleaned up and start studying in there. I also have a few craft projects I want to start so it looks like I am going to keep busy in the coming months.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Some days it hits hard

I should probably say some nights are hard. Tonight is one of those nights. I got hit with this feeling of missing The Boy. I just want to curl up on the couch with him and talk. I am really feeling alone right now and like February 12th will never get here. I don't like this feeling at all. It makes me feel so weak. I try and be strong for him but right now I can't keep the tear away. I hate feeling this way!!!!

I need to plan. It always makes it feel better. Planning how to get back to the same state, things to do when we see each other again, how to save money to be able to see him an extra time.

This to shall pass.

My 6 year old drug dealer

I decided to get a few Brownie points and go to the office for a little bit on Saturday. When I was there the highly anticipated/must despised Girl Scout Cookie order form got placed in front of my by my boss. CRAP!!! I have a love/hate relationship with cookies....always have and always will. I went ahead and bought some for the hell of it and because it is protcol to purchase from your boss' daughter.

I got the shortbread ones which I don't normally get but I think I might use create a recipe with them. I am seeing something using Kahlua or rum just so I can call it a drunk Girl Scout!

Other musings of the day, the tree is finally down. I went everywhere (ok 2 places) looking for a tree storage bag with no luck so I am going to have to order one online and then I can put the tree in storage. I am working on getting ready for next week and trying to make my menu for the week. I am also trying to find something to bake and put in The Boy's care package going out tomorow. I promised him only sweets from Cooking Light so I have to find a good one for my first attempt.

I decided to finally throw caution to the wind and make my LONG deactive FaceBook account active. Wow, I have been living under a rock! I have been wondering about all my old friends and I was able to connect with so many of them this morning. The Boy would be so proud! For a brief fleeting moment I thought about linking this blog on FaceBook and I thought better of it. I started this blog to give myself somewhat of a free expression area and if I link then I feel like I have to censor myself on a few thing....that I would rather not do. I decided that if anyone wants it that they can ask me for it and then I can decide who it gets to a little better.

I will probably post a little later tonight but now I must straighten up the pig pen and get ready for next week.

Monday, January 5, 2009

One tired puppy

I have been going since 5:30 this morning and I am not a morning person. I am exhausted. I am going to have to learn to do this a little better. With work, school, personal time, and friend time I am going to have to learn to schedule my time more efficiently.

It will probably help if I scale down my TV viewing schedule. I can't justify a Tivo so I have to either watch a show when it comes on or on the web later. I think I need to cut down on the shows I watch! It isn't really like I have that many shows I watch but I just turn on the TV for sound and end up getting sucked in. If I was on my game, I would be starting in my stats quantitative analysis book to get a head start on a subject I know is going to test me this semester.

All in all, this was a busy and productive day. I stayed busy at work, stayed close to my diet, and kept my budget in check. No resolutions broken today.

Bed time for me.



Sunday, January 4, 2009

Veggie Soup

Well I just finished the veggie soup. All in all, it was pretty good. I was going to go and buy fresh veggies for it but really didn't feel like venturing out in public today. So I grabbed what I had on hand and just threw stuff together. 6 cups of chicken stock, a bag of veggie stir fry mix, a bag of broccoli and cauliflower mix, some partial bags of peas, carrots, baby lima beans, and some spinach. A few spices and tweaking and it turned out good for the first attempt.

I rarely measure anything out when I cook like this and the soup was no exception so I am clueless about what spices I ended up using and how much of them I used. Since the soup didn't completely suck I will be doing this again and and measuring so I can share it. I will also try to see if it will look better so it can photograph and not look icky.

I think this will be good as a soup base as well as a stand alone soup too. Tonight I put whole wheat noodles with it and made a vegetable and noodle soup. Tomorrow I think I will put some chicken with it and make chicken veggie soup or maybe chicken noodle soup. I can also add rice or orzo with it as well. This is probably destined to be a staple for me for a while! And the best part, I didn't spend an extra dime to make it!

Back on the Wagon

I realized it is hard to stick to a strict budget and work on the weight loss goals together. This is going to take some creative genius on my part. Now I see why I was a size 2 in college...I couldn't afford to eat and go out drinking so I choose the one that is more fun! Dancing was the way to work off the drinking pounds.

And now I woke up in this world where I step on a scale and I realize I have become, well shall we say, a lard ass!! I know, very good self esteem there. I just can't stop eating and starti going out every night like I once did. I am out of college and have a job, a house, grad school, bills, appointments, and obligations to take care of. All of this and I have to really watch the budget. It leaves little time for planning menus, cooking, and shopping for food.

I have to think fast and economical. I also have to make sure I don't waste any food in the house or cook and don't eat it. I have to really look at what is at the house and eat what is on hand and only go to the grocery store for the necessities. From someone who goes to the grocery store for fun to go up and down the aisles, this will be a very big test.

I think the first thing I am going to work on it chicken noodle soup using what I have in the house. It it turns out I will definitely post online about it. If not, forget I mentioned it!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Good to be home!

It's so good to be home!! I love road trips but that one was a little too much in too short of a time. I left the office on Friday at 2:30 and got to my destination around 7:30 due to a few stops. One key crisis (key to the office I was at was 200 miles away) resolved, and my heart restarted and I was able to get some sleep before having to get up and be at the office at 6:30 this morning. Work till 1 and then head home to go over to a friend's house at 6:30.

I decided to ask my mom to come on the trip with me and it was pretty good. We only got into it once when I felt she was attacking how I handled a work issue. It did help me though and I would never tell her to her face but she gave me some good insight into how to handle some issues I have been having.

I am finally sitting on my couch, relaxing and talking online to The Boy. I need to input all of my expenses from this trip so I can see where my budget is. From there I can figure out if I want to hold off on the grocery store for a few more days. It feels strange to be so tight on the funds but I know it will help me. I have done really good, but I am learning a few things about myself.

1. If I don't eat filling meals I graze all day
2. I need to pack snacks when I do these trips so I am not spending money on unhealthy food.
3. Fast food can blow my food budget REALLY fast.
4. I can resist the outlet mall in San Marcos...but it was hard on me. I survived and didn't go shoe shopping. I am holding off and using that as a treat for accomplishing a yet to be determined goal.

I think I am going to spend a few more minutes catching up and then going to go pass out and not get out of bed until I am ready...no matter what time that it tomorrow.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

They aren't resolutions they are goals

The black eye peas have been eaten and I have spent time going over what I want to accomplish in 2009. I decided to look at it not as a resolution to change something but rather a goal to work towards this year.

Some of the highlights are to show The Boy how much I care about him and how lucky I feel to have him. I want to leave work at work and not bring it and the issues home with me. I want to get healthier and get some of my reoccurring health issues under control. I want to experiment more in the kitchen. Most importantly, I want to get my finances under control and get my savings built back up. The house took a lot of it that I have been a lax in replacing so I am ready to get saving! I also want to be able to afford to go to DC on a regular basis and Montreal later this year.

I know this year is going to be hard for me but I also know it is going to bring great surprises and has the potential to be one of the best. Bring it on 2009!!!