Saturday, February 28, 2009

Welcome back to the human race

It feels pretty good to be back in the land of the living.

Last night on the way home I decided I just had to go spend a little time at Target. I ended up browsing the aisles for over an hour just trying to justify everything I wanted. I ended up with a new pair of jeans, a few tops, a sleep shirt, a DVD for an after midterm reward and a book to read at night. I haven't splurged and bought anything for me just because in so long that it felt nice and I didn't have any guilt about it. Now if I can just find the perfect pair of black flats, one more pair of good khakis, and a few more tops I should be good to go.

It is no secret to me that I have been gaining and NOT losing weight. Part of it I can control and part of it is due to the medicine I have been on (along with my visit back to teenage acne). I am worried if I clean out my closet and get rid of things that don't fit that I will be left with nothing. Worse, left with nothing and then lose the weight again and have to end up buying more clothes. Have I mentioned I HATE to shop? I have to be in the mood to go clothes shopping. When nothing fits right it gets a little frustrating. I also have to do serious shopping alone and finding the time is very hard.

Maybe I will just end up giving away the things I will never wear regardless. Then I can get a storeage container and put all the clothes in it that I will wear once I get rid of the extra pounds.

Friday, February 27, 2009

Playing catch up

Well I am finally getting around to enjoying the blogging world again. So much has been going on in my life that I feel like things are running faster than I can handle. Between my relationship, my friends, my health, my job, and my school, I feel like I have been letting everything slide. I spent most of The Boy's visit being an emotional wreck so I am sure he just loved that. I haven't seen my friends in what seems like forever, my job is just there and I should be putting more into it, I am not studying like I should, and I am definitely not taking care of my health. All of the other things I am stressing about are physically taking their toll on me in ways I could have never imagined.

Right now, I am just all about me and getting myself back right. I scaled back my work to have a normal schedule (well except for my Saturday work), I am on a pretty good schedule for my daily routine, and I am taking time for myself when I can. I am hoping that will help with some of the stress. Soon, it will be a well deserved day of pampering for me with a massage, a hair cut and maybe a facial. I really need a mental health day.

I also have a vacation to plan!! After much debate and trying to decide if we wanted to be busy or relax on vacation, we decided to do a little of both and head to Puerto Rico for some away time. It will give me my need for blue water and beach and The Boy a chance to explore. It is also somewhere relatively cheap and a place neither of us have been.

So I am going to try to keep up with my blog and my blog world again. Wish me luck!!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Random Thoughs...part 2

Again, I am having issues thinking complete thoughts. The numbered list helps me since I am a planning freak.

1. I really need to make my doctor's appointment next week.

2. I need a vacation. The Boy is in town most of this month but I think on March 14th, I am going to go spend a day at the spa or maybe even have a little me getaway in town. I REALLY need to relax and get rid of some of this stress.

3. Sometimes I feel like people in my life say they support me going to school yet their actions say the opposite. People don't seem to realize how much work I have to do. I should be studying about 3 hours a night after I get home from school. I am good if after all the interuptions if I get an hour. No wonder I am already behind on my classes.

4. One of my friends is ring shopping. I couldn't help but feel excited for her and day dream a little on my own and do what we as females tend to do when looking at that stuff. I got pushed back down to reality. It's still fun watching her reactions and getting to hear that excitement in her voice. It makes me smile and feel so happy for her. It is a good diversion from other areas.

5. I feel like I don't do enough to give back.

6. After my post about my job today, I got an unexpected surprise. However, what was very good came with strings attached. I decided to go ahead and deal with the strings but I am fine without the good I am getting so I am going to pass it on to someone who could use it more than I could. BUT, I am putting restrictions on it's use. :) Ah, it is good to be on the other side.

7.Oh, #2 is starting to take shape. I might do the 5k in March and then the rest of that day, spend it on me.

8. I need to get back into current events. I took a 3 week break but I think it is about time.

9. I am getting really boring in my posts. I think I will stop now and do school work.

I am going to SCREAM

If I have to hear one more person in this office whine about how "busy " they are and don't have time to do something I am going to scream!! If I hear the same people bitch that I am not getting my job done fast enough I am going to give them the finger. If one of these people complain about me getting my job done too slow and it is because I am doing their work that they were too "busy" to do, then I am going to KILL.

Damn, I need a new job.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

So close I can smell it

It is so close to Friday I can almost smell it. Only 8 more hours of work (ok, so 4 of work and 4 of appearing to work) before it is here. I haven't done crap to get ready. I need to do my classwork and clean the house tomorrow so that I am not a boring girlfriend who does nothing.

I feel a rant coming on but it hasn't aged quite enough yet. I know pretty much what is causing me to be pissy (just imagine PMS for 3 weeks and you can imagine how I feel right about now) but the list keeps growing!!!

Ok, this was a lame post but I am tired and want to curl up in bed and see if I can't get some sleep.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009


I really need to get to sleep at a reasonable hour. I am tired but I got sucked into TV!

Anywho, I am not sure why I stopped running but I did. I want to start back up but it is cold and I hate cold. I also have this phobia of doing anything other than walking on a treadmill. I see myself falling on my face since I am that clumsy. But the weather is getting better and I am getting the itch. So I am going to pull back out The Couch to 5K plan and get going. I should be able to get back in shape enough to do the Dash down Greenville on March 14th. I have a friend who will be there so that will help me stay accountable.

Oh wish me luck! I need all of it I can get!

Monday, February 2, 2009

We're going to school!

So if you look at my profile you will see the addition of a new blog. My CIS class is basically geared to computer systems and getting familiar with the technology tools available to managers. Since I have more IT certifications behind by name than I really should be allowed, this class is a little bit of a breather for me and one of the reasons I decided to take 3 classes this semester along with all the special "need-to-know-super-secret" projects at work.

This week, we are learning about wiki, web 2.0 and blogs! Part of my assignment is create a blog. Um, yea, that is no sweat. So since my blog URL is Buster Brown after one of the fur balls, I decided to make Buster go to school. That is how Buster Brown goes to School came to be. Oh, I am sure that is a temporary blog but it serves the purpose.

Of course, I couldn't just leave it plain jane. Nope, I had to add a blog background and a little intro post complete with a Get Smart (original series for me) photo.

So in other news, I am in a funk, yep a funk. I can't get excited about The Boy coming to visit. I know I should, but I can't. I think we have both just been so preoccupied with life that we haven't really acted like a couple while we have been apart this time. I haven't gone the extra step to make him feel special I don't think. And I am sure he takes my lead on that so if I haven't been doing it I don't think he really has. I don't know how people do it!

There are a lot of times lately that I just have rotten days and I when I need to just let it off my chest, he tries to make it better by fixing it. But the way he fixes it seems to hurt more than help. I feel like sometimes he discounts my solutions to problems and tries to tell me another way to do it. This is really hard when I am not even looking for a solution, I just need to get it off my chest and hear "I understand and it will be OK". I spent 31 years figuring out muy own problems so I dont' need help there but I do need someone to listen to me and just let me vent every now and then! I know, this is a inherent guy thing that they all do, it has just been a long time since I have had a guy care about me enough to feel the need to help. Oh well, that just had to get off my chest. This too shall pass.