Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Date: FAIL

Yea, date didn't go do good.  Oh he was a cool guy, but never asked anything about me.  Seemed to really not be into me but yet was a perfect gentleman and kept the date going longer than he probably needed to.  I completely embarrassed myself and needless to say we won't be seeing each other again unless I run into him when he is playing a show or out drinking. But this is a big town and that won't be happening.

Needless to say, I am through dating for a while.  My online account just renewed and I was able to get a refund on that.  I'm tired of bad first dates, rude men, and just the hassle of dating.  I realized I need to remember again what it is like to truly be single. To enjoy spending time on things I want to do and try and make more time for the friends I already have and get out and make more friends. And I need to make more single friends.  I am freakin tired of being the only single one.

In other news I think I need to move out of suburbia-hell and get to a new area of town.  Not as easy as it seems when you own your house but I am going to start figuring out a way to do it.

Friday, March 19, 2010

I'm Back!!!

Not sure how much I will be posting but I am back for a little bit.  I went back to the old school paper journal.  It's strange how the act of physically writing helps my writing and my brain.

Let's see, what's going on.  Work is ok, relatively speaking.  Things going good, meeting new people, getting over my fear of the phone and talking to strangers, all in all good times.  Of course my confidence has been bolstered by....

NEW CLOTHES!!  Yea, I know, I so suck at the whole saving thing right now.  In my defense, I did budget for my downfall.  So tonight after work, I rolled into Nordstrom and the Galleria, met my wonderful personal stylist, grabbed a glass of wine and went to town! Gotta love saying I went down a size.  Thank goodness for WW!  And the new clothes will be good for....

A freaking date!!!  I am abso-freaking-lutly floored I actually have a real date tomorrow and not a "coffee" date.  Even more amazing, he isn't a computer dork or engineer type (not that there is anything wrong with that but I have been dating that type for 10 years).  So looking forward to it.

Ok, not really tired but looking forward to sleeping in.  I saved a few points tonight for another glass of wine so that should be the trick to get nice and sleepy.  Hasta la bye-bye!!!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Conquering Fear

Well I did it, I looked fear in the eye and laughed.  Ok, so maybe laugh is a little strong.  Let's try got really really sick at my stomach, almost wimped out about 5 times and got so scared I almost cried.  But gosh darn-it, I did it!!

Did what you ask?  Climbed a mountain?  Performed surgery? Bungie jumped?  Nope.  Attended a Toastmasters meeting all by myself.  Yes, not a big deal to some but to me, the person who has done everything in life to avoid being noticed and talking, heading by myself to a meeting to a public speaking club is HUGE!!!  I sit home because I am scared to go new places by myself.  I am hoping I can slowly gain confidence to get out there and meet new people, go new places, and have more confidence in in myself.  I am looking forward to going again