Friday, December 23, 2011

Here We Go Again

Wow, has it really been since September since I was last blogging?  Funny what happens when you get off track.

I am in full on planning mode here with the trusty list of everything I am cooking and baking over the next four days.  More importantly , I am trying to not let the change in my days off that just happened zap my holiday spirit. I see it as an unexpected day off after Christmas as opposed to having to work on Friday when I wasn't supposed to.

Not sure about anyone else but my simple Christmas lunch menu went from easy and casual to two days full of cooking, new recipes, and crazy experimentation with meals.  I went from cooking one meal to cooking two elaborate meals. 

Christmas eve, I am cooking a duck...a whole duck.  I saw it as the store and said why not.  I have never done it before and what better time than for a holiday eve meal. That means that tonight I get to boil the duck and find room for it in my fridge.  Easier said than done when I have a ba-jillion things in there already.

Christmas Day went from a ham with a few sides to, a ham, cornish game hens and 5 different sides.  I have never wished for a double oven more in my life.  I keep looking in my kitchen wondering how I can remodel it just to get a double oven for the one time a year I actually need it.  I have it figured out but I need the money tree to be able to afford it.

I promise pictures of the craziness and a few more blog posts over the holiday next week. 

Until then, Merry Christmas!

Friday, September 16, 2011

The Art of Racing in the Rain - Review

So I have never reviewed a book on here because nothing truly inspired me to...until now.

A little background about me first shall we...

1) I love my dogs, heck all my animals.  They are my family and my comfort.  I would do anything for them.

2) I love to drive.  One of my obsessions is HPDE...High Performance Driving Events. It isn't racing, there is no winner (my insurance wouldn't cover it then). But is is basically the same thing without as much of the competition. We all get on track hoping one day to have the skills to race.  We practice it, we study it when we aren't at the track, and we live for track days.

Now, that said...I. LOVED.THIS.BOOK. The cat hated it because it kept my attention away from her.

It combined my two favorite things.  On the surface, it reinforced some track lessons.  Deeper, it related the track to real world and made some of my lessons even more valuable.  It reminded me to never give up and keep thinking ahead and thinking positive.

The struggles in the story held my attention and the story line.  While I have seen some say it was predictable, it was told in such a way to keep me reading.  Truth be told, I read the whole thing cover to cover in about 4 hours.  I haven't done that with a book since Gone With the Wind. (yes, I read the WHOLE thing without a about a long night).

Open yourself up to the lessons in it.  When it talks about driving lessons, relate them to your personal life and see them as more than they appear because the car really does go where the eyes go.

This is one that will stay on my shelf and I will read again.

Now, on to The Help...tomorrow.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Welcome Back

For the past few weeks I just haven't felt blogging so I didn't.  It wasn't that I didn't have things on my mind to write about but I didn't have the attention span to actually put it into words.  Oh well, my blog, my rules.

I fell off the fit wagon for a little bit and by fell I mean went sky diving without a parachute.  But, I got back on it really good this week.  I am back to tracking my food, my workouts and setting goals that are actually attainable.

Monday was training day and I started to get it back then.  Mid-way through the workout it hit me and I pushed threw and felt great.  Well, if great means my legs were killing me.  Thankfully I actually came home and got the roller out and spent time becoming one with it and my ice.

Tuesday, the temperature popped back into the 100's and my run was a chore.  I did it but during the first part of it, I felt like I was breathing through a straw.  That and a the group I was running in, seemed to have a shorter stride and a little slower pace than I was accustomed to.  Turns out, I do better when I can stretch out and go a little faster. Another good motivator was that when you were running, you created a breeze.  When you stopped, it was like you stopped in a sauna.  I got it done though!

Today, was training day and it was more fun than a workout although I did really workout hard.  I was just in the mood to enjoy it and have fun.  Now I am home, rolling out my knee and watching the Crossfit games.  Want to talk about a motivator and feeling like a slacker all in it and see.  As corny as it sounds, it made me do a little more tonight once I got home.

I am not sure about anyone else, but I am having a hard time thinking that I still have two more days left of this week.  I keep thinking that tomorrow is Friday.  Probably because I am working on about 4 hours of sleep today.  My mind just wouldn't shut off last night.  I was just worrying.  A big part of that was because a friend of mine called me and I missed the call.  It was from a different number than I am used to and that freaked me out a little.  He didn't leave a message so my mind started worrying about him.  I know a missed call shouldn't bug me but when he is deployed it always freaks me out.  Thankfully, he knows my crazy tendencies and emailed me today.  I love him for indulging my crazy!!

Bedtime for me!

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Happy Birthday to me!!

I cannot believe it's my birthday.  This one is hitting me very strange.  I have officially crossed over into mid-thirties yet I still feel like I should be about 25.  Probably because I might have my own casa and drive a car that I am not scared will strand me, I live exactly the same way I always have.  Oh well, cheers to being comfortable with who you are at any age!!

I went to my running group last night and didn't die! Although, it was muggy and felt like I was breathing in dirty bath water and not air.  It only started bothering me about 2 minutes from the end so it wasn't bad.  I was really worried since I tweaked my knee pretty good the night before with my trainer because someone forgot to foam roll.  The run actually helped in stretch out though so who knows what I did to it.  Today it is in perfect, just barely a pain form.

I am off until after Labor Day!!  I firmly believe that your birthday is special and no one should ever work on their day.  My boss completely understands this and supports me because he knows if he were to make me work, I would turn into a bratty little kid who didn't get her way.

I also am strange in that I don't really believe in New Year's resolutions, but I do believe in birthday resolutions.  Because really, isn't your new year your birthday? So I have decided on my resolutions for this year.

1.  Finally stop running 5ks on my own and actually buck up and enter a 5k race.
2.  Run a 10k
3.  Budget and save like a big girl
4.  Lose these last pesky pounds that seem to love my butt
5.  Take a true vacation
6.  Be more thoughtful of other people's feelings and considerations
7.  Be happy
8.  Make the house a home
9.  Don't sweat the small stuff
10.  Take chances.

Off to straighten the house and then meet the parental units for dinner. Hasta la bye bye!!

Friday, August 26, 2011

Sleep please

I can't believe I am still up.  I can tell you tomorrow is going to be unpleasant at least the morning portion.

I left the office and headed out to happy hour.  Why does driving into downtown still get me flustered?  I made it without getting in a wreck or causing one...bonus points for me!!

It was a fun experience but I must say I was NERVOUS before I headed in.  I am 100% pure introverted and it walked in not knowing anyone.  It was fun and I will go to the next one for sure.  It felt good to talk to people about finance and not put them to sleep. Score one for a room full of number geeks!!

After that is was dinner at Bolla for the last gasps of Restaurant Week.  It was good but nothing to write home about.  I guess my tastes have just changed a little and rich food isn't where it is at anymore.  If I am going to have a splurge meal, I would rather have comfort food...chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes, friend okra, peach cobbler, those kind of things.

I did slip on the sugar ban but I'm paying the price now.  Strange how when you don't eat sugar and then have a little it effects you as if you funneled a whole bag down your throat?

Almost 12:30...guess it is time to toss and turn in bed and see if I can't get a few hours of sleep.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Quick WTF

Sitting in my office late after a day spent rebuilding my computer and losing files only to find out that we have a backup system that the "IT" never put my computer on.  Two things wrong with this....that I spent the day rebuilding and that the IT guy never helps with anything.  WTF!!!!

Staying late at the office because I have a meeting in downtown at 6:30 and then dinner with a friend at 7:30.  The owner comes in and asked what I am doing here so late.  I tell him and he tells me "you should make the guy come up this way".  I snip back that it isn't that kind of a meeting and he asks why not.  Excuse me, because it isn't.  I am tired and just don't want to have to think up ways to get this guy to leave me alone so I just tell him that I rarely date.  DUMB move....he asks how long since my last date.  Um, 3 years.  DUMB move.  He acts like I have a deadly disease or three eyes. Just because I don't date, I  choose not to and I am perfectly happy single and on my own that gives you the right to look at me like that and give me advice on how I should start dating so I can meet someone and get married.  WTF!!!!

 OK, off to my YPF meeting where I will interact with people my own age and not those with their Medicare cards.  And where I will not be looking for a husband but instead looking for networking contacts.  Then off to dinner at Bolla.  Yummy.

Later Taters.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

The Wall

Last night I went to class and was apprehensive about what to expect.  It wasn't bad.  Of course, it was only a run to see how what your speed is.  I did it, let's just say that.  I knew I should have started doing some outside workouts, but oh I have room for improvement.

I didn't get home until about 9 last night and ended up oversleeping this morning because I couldn't get to sleep on time.  Add to that the school traffic I still haven't figured out and I was LATE to work.  Or as I call it, a usual Wednesday.

So tonight in my workout, I completely hit the wall during a super set with no break in between.  Normally it isn't hard but after breaking up the following exercises in 2 rep sets, I was spent. 

1.  Plank Pikes - 12
2.  Medicine ball raises - 12
3. Up/Down Side Planks - 6 each side
4.  Hamstring presses - 12
5.  Bosu squat with 12 lb shoulder press - 12
6.  Step ups - 10 each side
7.  Reverse lunge with tricep kickbacks 5lb - 10
8.  Forward lunge with bicep curl 12lb - 10

On the last 4 of the last exercise I hit the wall.  I couldn't talk myself through it...I wanted to quit. I have never given up and I didn't but I seriously wanted to cry like I was on the Biggest Loser and Jillian was in my face. I did it though and then took a short rest and went on to do squats.  Then had an affair with the foam roller and ended up wanting to scream it hurt so bad.

As if I didn't give myself enough pain, the plan was to come home and roll some more so I could yell in peace and string four letter obscenities together to deal with the pain.  Hasn't happened yet.  Instead I jumped out of the car and went for a 20 minute walk/run.  The weather was just too nice to not do it.  

Now I can roll and scream and then head to bed and do it all over tomorrow.  

Monday, August 22, 2011

Monday Fun

The workout tonight was just what I needed!! It felt so good to do a full body beating.  I admit this is the first time in probably 3 weeks that I was really into it.  The cute trainer being there didn't hurt either!! ;)

The server crashed out at work today.  It should be back 2-3 days.  There are documents on the server that I need to do my everyday job.  There are documents that I spent over a month creating to help me do my analysis.  I am praying that the backups are valid and I get my documents back.  If not, I am going to be an unhappy camper.  Needless to say, from now on, my important documents are going to be on a zip drive. I am also going to have one for all the records that I keep on the server usually.

How in the world did I get sucked into watching this crappy Most Eligible show on Bravo??  I so hope that these people are what everyone thinks of Dallas.  I really need to turn this crap off and get on to what real people in Dallas do...get ready for work and go to bed.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Random Musings

The randomness that is my Sunday...

1.  Well after drinking a ton of water, being outside all day yesterday and being active that whole time, I realized why I still felt thirsty and got a headache last night. On top of that, I was shaky and a few other things I won't mention here.  Can you say electrolyte Imbalance??  Next time, there will be gatorade in the cooler along with water.  Lesson learned.

2.  Still going good on no sugar!!  But right now after dinner, I am craving it.  I know it's all in my brain but I usually listen to my brain! Maybe I will go have some yogurt and strawberries.

3.  This week is going to be crazy and is a preview of the next 6 weeks.  As a result, I decided to start going back to menu planning OCD style.  On Tuesdays and Thursdays, I get to not only bring my lunch but also my dinner with me so I have to really plan.  Crock pot and salads here I come!

4.  Ok, my WTF moment and soapbox topic. Someone close to me posted on FB today that they were cleaning out their kids' rooms today.  My question, if your kids are 9 shouldn't they be doing that?  Why in the world are you being their maid? My parents made me do that and do chores.  I'm still alive, not socially impaired (much), and don't have repressed memories of Mommy Dearest abuse. Kids need to learn responsibility....make them do it.

5.  When did teenagers get so disrespectful!! I know I am not talking about ALL but I witnessed an incident at the grocery store this afternoon that just made me shake my head.  Two teenage girls cut a lady off in her car and the lady said something to them. I heard more four letter words and threats out of those two girls than I have ever heard from anyone who wasn't on reality TV.  If I would have said half of that stuff to anyone my parents would have beat me and I still would have been locked in my room.  Maybe I am just getting old.

6.  I got an email from my running class mentioning that if the heat index is over 105 then class will be cancelled for the day.  That is the first time I realized that I am going to actually have to run in the heat outside. Crap, I really should have been conditioning for this more.

Off to get my food ready or tomorrow, get my clothes for the week laid out, and enjoy a Sunday night.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

More Water Please

I was up and out of the house early this morning and I still ran late. It was fun getting started early this morning but I was off all day long.  At these events, there is a pretty set schedule and when it gets pushed up even an hour, it feels completely off. The only good part is that I was able to get home by 4 which was probably for the best since my head is now killing me.

Being outside in 100 degree heat all day made me drink water...lots of water. I lost track after about my 7th bottle. The strangest part is that now I am's like I can't drink enough water now.  I think I got adjusted to drinking water all day and now without it, I feel dehydrated.  I guess there are worse things to constantly be drinking.

Sugar free day one was pretty easy.  The willpower moment of the day was when I stopped at my favorite place in Denton to grab a late lunch on the way home.  They serve Beth Marie's ice cream which is by the way, the best ice cream.  I resisted getting an ice cream sandwich or a pint of butter pecan.  Yea me!!  But ya'll it was HARD after being outside all day.

I did find a way around the whole birthday-sugar issue.  Duh, I have 3 years worth of Clean Eating Magazine that have no sugar sweets recipes.

Tonight I am going to nurse my headache, drink water, and watch my "little" cousin hopefully get some play time in pre-season.  I hope, hope, hope he doesn't get cut and get to see his dreams fulfilled.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Fast Friday Post

I had a whole post done...Blogger freaked and now I have to go all over again.  I swear, sometimes I think it would just be easier to have my own URL.  Anywho...

Today was a rest day only because I had so much to do and not enough time.

After work I headed over to Run On and signed up for the running class that starts next week.  Hopefully this will get me motivated to get with the program and stop making excuses and start making progress.  The goal is to do a few 5ks once the weather gets cooler and I would really like to run them as opposed to walking them.

It is also tax free weekend and I was going to get some new socks.  I ended up with a new sports bra and a new pair of shorts and completely forgot the socks!!  Such is my memory on a Friday.

After some unexpected shopping, I went to finally get my hair cut. Yea, for not looking like a shaggy dog anymore.  It was hard to actually relax and enjoy.  I finally got to it...right about the time that it was time to go.  Again, such is my life on a Friday.

Once I got home I did a little car wash probably more to play with in the water but at least it was an excuse.

Now I am off to bed os I can get up EARLY and be at an event at 6:30 in the morning.  Spend all day outside and then come home and crash. I am going to be realistic and say that the gym will not be happening tomorrow.  But I will definitely be heading there on Sunday.

Oh, I am also going to join Krista in the Sugar Free Challenge.  I always feel better when I do sugar free.  I also think that is part of the reason that the weight is not coming off as fast as I would like it.  Sugar free  until I hit 155 too.  That will be about 20 pounds.  I can do this.  I might have to kill the next person who puts the Krispy Kremes outside my office but that is a small price to pay for my thighs!!

Now can someone tell me how to celebrate my birthday without sugar?!?!

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Wednesday Confessions

I think it is about time that I clear my consious a tad and make some confessions. I keep coming up with stupid excuses to not work out.  As a result, I am going to take this time to list all my excuses (feel free to use them) and then what I need to do to bust through them (feel free to give suggestions)

1. I am freaking lazy.  I mean, come on...look at the URL of this blog.  L.A.Z.Y.  I would rather sit on the couch on long work days as opposed to getting up and getting to the gym.

Nope, I am not going to stop running. In fact, I am going to do it MORE!  Starting next week, I am going to training on Mondays and Wednesday and then on Tuesdays and Thursdays, I am going to be at the Run On! Running 101 class.  These are things I pay for and I as much as I am lazy, I am also cheap and hate wasting money.  This gets me moving four days a week and then I can add a day here and there on the weekends.

2. I'm too tired! I always choose sleep over working out. Last night, I had every intention of going to workout and instead fell asleep on the couch. 

This one is easy....get some damn sleep!! Stop staying up till 1am and thinking you are going to get your butt out of bed at 5:30 the next morning.  Yes, you might be staying put for hours but really, you are just being unproductive.  It is better to be more productive in a shorter time period than be a slug on the couch for longer periods.

3.  I feel sick.  I must be the weakest, sickliest person ever for as much as I say I don't feel good.  I know I am a wimp when it comes to pain and give into being sick alot and even I get tired of it.  It's actually kind of ironic since I am the person that rarely takes a sick day EVER. 

I bet if I took care of myself I would feel tons better.  I need to start really making sure I stay hydrated througout the day.  I think that is really what is causing my headaches and my lack of energy. 

4.  I'm too stressed.  Somewhere in my brain I have decided that when I am stressed the best thing to do is relax and forget about it or sit and stress some more about it.  These things can't happen when you exercise.

I know that exercise helps reduce stress.  I just need to remember it when all of the other excuses come up.  I need to remember how good it feels to run and with every step feel stronger and like the crud of the day isn't a big deal. 

5.  I feel sluggish.  Well duh!!  Of course you do, you forgot your lunch yet again and you indulged in In-N-Out at lunch!!  Of course you feel bloated and like a fat cow when you go work out. 

I must realize that every day is not special and that I deserve to eat out every day.  My butt can't handle it and my bank account can't handle it! Of course if you eat food high in sodium and fat calories you are going to feel like crap on and never see a change on the scale. This also might be some of the reason my skin is starting to look more like a 15 year old pimple face again.  I must start just getting off my butt at night and packing my food up for the next day again.  I am usually so good at this and these past few weeks have just been a little fall off the wagon. 

6.  What will padding my time an extra 10 minutes hurt? I am the world's worst at holding myself accountable to doing hard tasks. I can justify any reason (see items 1-5).  A big reason for this is that I work out alone.  I have been going to the gym and doing this on my own for a year now.  I have no gym buddies, no running buddies, no one to cheer me on when I do good and no one to hold me accountable when I start straying from the plan. 

Ok, really, it isn't all that bad.  I just happened to get into getting back in shape and taking care of myself and started it alone.  The majority of the people in my life don't take it as serious as I do and don't workout with me.  I just need to get out there and meet a few new people to workout with and run with.  That is one of the reasons I am taking the running class...that and to finally figure out this whole training thing so I can see some increase in my miles or speed. 

Those are my top 5 reasons and a little bit of what I know I need to do in order to fix it.  Admitting you have a problem is the first step to fixing the problem right?

What do you do to stay motivated and beat back the excuses?

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Nap Time Please

I am dragging butt today!!

I was all set to get to asleep at 10.  Bed and a book called my name at 9:30 and who am I to deny? The plan was one chapter, lights out at 10.  It ended up being one book, lights out at 1am.  This is why I don't read during the week.

This lack of sleep was only made worse by the fact that about 12:45, something put the psycho kitty into full on hunting mode.

And whatever it was was on my bed or the wall by my head.  Two things here...the thought of something crawling on me when I went to sleep is enough to keep me up.  And when Ms. Thing goes on safari, nothing is safe.  She will jump on your head to get where she needs to be...if you are in between her and her prey, you are going down. I had to push my pillows away from the headboard so she could pace back and forth.

Can we also just add to this long night and say my medicine decicided to also make me feel like I was on fire last night?  PERFECT.

Here I am at work, on 4 hours of sleep.  I want to go to Zumba tonight but I don't know if I can hold till 6:30.  It might be a zzzzz's class instead if you get my drift.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Hello Monday!

Yea, Monday...can you sense the sarcasm.

Apparently new glasses make all the difference in the world! Something in me snapped this weekend and I decided that I after 3 years it was time to get new glasses. I decided to mix it up and try something new.

Yea, I feel smart!!  Really, it was strange. And What is up with the halo effect in my office...This was the best picture I could get.  Every other picture made me look like my hair was a light bulb.  I swear I hate florescent lights and mustard walls.  

Something else I found in my office today...

Doesn't everyone keep a bottle in their office?  When I got my job, I went almost a year without my beloved adding machine, thinking I could just do what I needed on my computer.  I was having major printing withdrawal (as a finance nerd, I love to hear the 10 key printing).  I finally broke down and went to ask if we had an extra one.  The owner couldn't find one but said the bottle was a consolation prize. Heck yea!!  It stays in my office for the worst day which thank goodness hasn't happened yet.  And I ended up bringing my personal 10 key in...yes I am THAT person.  

After work, I did the usual gym trip and actually came home and cooked dinner!  Will wonders never cease up in this house??

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Yep, still got shins

For the first time in 3 months it was nice enough to take the run outside.  Let me tell you, while it was wonderful and I loved it, my shins let me know they were there.  OUCH!!! It was well worth it though.

I can tell you that I need to do a little research on food before I do another run at 8pm.  I ate a Cliff Bar and a banana and I was tasting the banana the whole run.  I just don't get how to eat dinner AND workout if I do it past 6pm.  It might be time to let the bookworm out and start reading some of the books I see everyone writing about.

This is going to be a strange post...I completely had a brain fart and now I have no idea what I wanted to write.  Time for chocolate milk and a little Hoarders before bed!!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Two more left...I can do this

First, before anything, let me get something off of my chest and behind me.  Last Night. Oh boy!!

Sometimes I wonder about people. Sometimes I wonder about myself.  Last night I met up with someone in my profession who I has met at an event that is outside of my profession.  We met up after work for drinks and to talk.  Now, it should be said, this person is considerably older.  I was looking forward to discussing our mutual hobby as well as work and learning how this person does their job.  It turned into this person coming on to me.  This isn't the first time and I came home feeling awful and wondering if it is me, if it is normal, if I'll ever meet people who truly want to help or if I am going to have to make my own way with no help. It was not a good night. I can't let it get me down but honestly, it does make me feel like I can't trust anyone I meet and everyone has an ulterior motive.  It sucks. I don't like it. I go on.

Ok, now the bad stuff is out and I am releasing it.

Other than that, this week has been busy, long, and rewarding.  Tomorrow is a LONG day and I should be getting my stuff together but I am just sitting here still tired after my workout.  I love the tired.  Now I need to get up, iron my pants and put tomorrow's dinner in the crockpot.  Maybe I will do that dinner for Friday.  Yep, Friday.  It's Wednesday and the meal plan is out the window again.  Such is life!!

Has anyone else ever experienced a situation like I did?  How did you handle it?  I still get uncomfortable and think I handle it wrong.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Sleep is needed!

Talk about a crazy Monday!!  With my boss on vacation, my days are long and my work load is double...I love it.  I left work today feeling fulfilled but drained.  Thank goodness I had to workout tonight or else I would already be asleep.

I forgot about the most amazing kitchen appliance ever until this weekend...the crockpot!!  It was so nice to come home before the gym and smell dinner already cooked.  Broccoli Beef with venison instead of beef.  I think that I will be using the crockpot on trainer nights at the gym.  It makes eating afterward so much easier.  Usually I am so tired that I just eat a banana and a piece of lunch meat.  Not too good for refueling. Hopefully, this will be a little better for me.

I think I found my groove for the month and I am ready to go. I have learned that during the week before IT, I lose all motivation and each like a teenager.  So I need to push it the other three weeks and try not to eat away all of my progress like I did this week.  I swear junk food is addictive and when I eat it, it is so much harder to stop eating it.  Willpower is non-existant in this house.  It is a skill I really need to learn!!

Off to chow down and enjoy some trashy TV.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Weekend Plans

I'm home...thank goodness.  Nothing like the freeway being shut down to make a crazy Friday commute even crazier.  I just happened to get to the accident involving the overturned semi-truck at the highway merge so I didn't have to wait long...10 more minute and I would have been taking the LONG way home.

On deck this weekend is operation Get Life Organized...Again.  This is a never ending saga in my house and hopefully this will be the last of it.

Take my kitchen for instance; I wish it could be like this.

Instead, I feel like it is more like this...

OK, really I know it isn't that bad....much.

So this weekend it is all about getting it done and getting this place so clean that Mrs. Cleaver would be amazed.   I mean if the heat is going to keep me indoors and unable to do anything fun then might as well get things in order.  After all....

I also got a home notebook done today so I could put all of my lists (I'm OCD like that) in one place.  I give it 2 weeks before I am back to writing notes on the back of the cereal box.  Not that I really do that...much.  Doesn't single life rock!!

Also on deck, head to the grocery store to take back the sounds good but is really germ infested turkey burger patty I got at the store this week.  Seems the recall bug hit my house.  Now I really do live in a germ infested hoard!!

Gym is also, of course, on the plan. I'm thinking Sunday is a good day for some TurboKick.  I usually hate classes but I just need to face up to the fear of looking like a complete, uncoordinated dork and try it.  I have not really tried a cardio type class since the infamous failing of aerobics in college.  Seriously, it was not my fault!!  Who ever schedule a morning aerobics class was on crack.  It really cut into my staying out and partying time.  Ok maybe I was just lazy.  Some things never change!

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Rest Day...what is that?

What a week!!  Today was a killer.  It was constant phone calls and emails.  I had to eat lunch at the yuck joint downstairs.  I keep saying never again!!  Might help if I remember to pack a lunch.  The day was only made better by the special delivery that was made today.  The company that shares the office with us had an all hands meeting and for the afternoon snack they brought in this!

Yep, pure on chocolate attack.  Can ya guess that it's that time. It was full but I was good and didn't eat it all.  Honestly, I just got chocolate overload.

Today was a rest day from the gym since I overdid it yesterday.  An hour of personal training emphasis on the thighs and the arms.  After, I ended up on the treadmill for 30 minutes and really pushed it.  My knee protested and I had to finally call it off and come home and ice and roll.  I got really smart and decided to sit 109 degree weather and ice.

Literally 10 minutes after I started, the peas were getting thawed. I guess that package is destined to just be an ice bag.  It did feel better but this morning was a killer.

I decided to play it cool today and not go to the gym for fear I would do more harm than good on the knee.  Instead and came home and got this wild hair to chemical clean the bathroom.  Now I am completely sick from the fumes and feeling light headed.  I'm really showing my smarts lately aren't I?

Sorry life is kind of boring today.  I'm gearing up for a weekend of cleaning, relaxing, cooking, working out and possibly a little thrift store shopping.

AWOL just a bit longer

I haven't fallen off the face of the earth or ended up in a ditch in the middle of nowhere. 

I was out of town this weekend and I just haven't gotten into the groove of the week yet (yes it is Thursday...this week is a waste).  Add to that, this is the busy week at work and that causes my blogging to be put on hold. 

Tonight I hope to have a new post and my fail at green peaing (aka icing) my knee outside in 109 degree heat.  Hint...frozen veggies melt too and now I have a dedicated green pea ice pack!

Until then...

Friday, July 29, 2011

SUYL - Parenting Advice

First, I must preface this with saying I have not been blessed to be a parent. But I think this is good advice for anyone who has an impact on the life of a child. 

I have been thinking a lot about what it means to impact a child and be a role model for children every since this cutie came into my life. 

She is the beautiful daughter of one of my closest friends and she made her appearance into the world a week ago.

As I was sitting holding her yesterday and gazing at her while she slept, her mother and I talked about what we wanted her to be and the values she would have.  I pray as her "aunt" that she becomes a strong, independent woman who treats those around her with respect and dignity.  I pray she loves herself and doesn't ever have hangups about who she is.  I hope she grows up to appreciate all those around her and not let those people who differ in their opinions bring her down.

While we were discussing this, we got on the topic of of course the baby weight and the changes.  We started talking about weight loss and losing those last pounds.  I stopped right there and said that we needed to be happy that she was in the world, both mother and daughter were healthy and over all no matter what life is good.  

Be the person you want your children to be. Children learn from watching.  If you talk negative about people, they will follow.  If you speak bad about yourself, they will learn to see themselves that way too.  Be the best example you can be for your children and teach by example.  To take it a step further, do this around all children you come in contact with.  Every day, be the best example you can be and don't worry about slip ups, it happens to all of us…it's how we recover that counts.  

Monday, July 25, 2011

Monday again?

I don't know about anyone else but I'm kind of tired of this whole Monday thing.  That is especially true when your weekends go by so fast.

Saturday was a rush of emotion on so many levels, but it was all worth it when I got to meet my new love.

 This is my new "niece"!! While she isn't a blood relative, she still already holds a special place in my heart.  One of my closest friends is her momma and I can't wait to spend more time with this little one and she who she will become.  Needless to say, she consumed my Saturday.  I rushed to get my chores done and then went to pick up another friend of ours, stopped by to buy the little one her first dress (they did not find out the sex before hand) and then went to go hold the little one and stare.

Sunday, the parental units came up to finally give me my graduation present and spend some time with me.  Lunch was completely unhealthy Babe's Fried Chicken and I completely enjoyed it.  Then a crazy trip to Ikea.  My daddy must really love me to do that.  Then we cam home and put together my new dresser and then I put together my other night stand.

Please excuse the undecorated bedroom.  This was taken at around 11 right after I "made" the bed.  I still have a long way to go to get it fixed up but the big pieces are in place.

I also got the black matching dresser but it's out of the picture.  The little desk that is my other nightstand was built by my grandpa.  The bed I LOVE!!!!  I found it at a flea market in Sweetwater Texas.  It was a full size, rusted and completely run down.  My daddy made it into a queen size and got it powder-coated black.  I completely love it and it will be with me always.  Now I need new bedding and actual decorations in the room.  Slowly but surely.

I'm sore from the gym tonight and now I get to put my clean clothes up, finish watching the Bachelorette and then Makeover and then to bed.  Makeover might be watched in my bed with the new headboard and footboard.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Why did I just now find this!

Great workout tonight.  I always call it a great workout when I come home and the thought of food is the furtherest thing from my mind.  All I want is water and something cold. Tonight I was craving a smoothie.  So I made a banana chocolate peanut butter smoothie.

1 cup ice
1 cup milk
1 1/2 tsp of chocolate PB2
1 scoop protein powder
1 banana
1 scoop chocolate protein powder

I downed it so fast I didn't even get a picture but it was amazing!!  I am totally addicted to PB2 now.

Oh, and if you ever encounter a cicada killer wasp run, don't walk away.  I swear it is the grossest thing I have ever seen.  I was all for it doing its thing and me doing mine till it charged me.  I screamed like a little girl and ran in the house.  I swear the bugs are one thing I very much dislike about summer!!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Meal Planning

Krista answered a question this morning about meal planning. Funny, because I had someone ask me about that very recently and I thought that I might as well post about my journey to anti-meal planning meal planning.

When I first started on my weight loss journey I felt that I had to plan everything I ate.  I religiously counted calories of everything on Sunday when I made my meal plan.  I went to the grocery store on Sunday and got everything I needed.  I planned the recipes (always halving them since it is just me).

I did very good on Monday and Tuesday and then I would either still end up with leftovers or by the time I got back from the gym on Wednesday night I was tired and the plan went out the door.  I ended up wasting a ton of food (because I am after all lazy and never freeze the food I have).  I would also feel guilt about not cooking things every night.

It took me a while to find a way to make healthy eating fit with my busy schedule.  Now I give myself some slack. I don't expect to cook a full recipe during the week. I save my cooking new recipes for the weekends.  I don't count calories. For the most part, I eat clean (for me, whole grains, meat, fresh veggies, fruit, no sugar, no processed food) and I know the rough calories on what I eat.  Every now and then I will count just to see if I am right or if I need more or less.

I keep snacks and breakfast food on hand.  That way I can just grab different combinations during the week.  On Sunday I go to the store and grab stuff for salad and any veggie that looks good and is quick booking.  Sometimes I buy meat if it is on sale to cook for the week or to keep in the freezer so I always have lean protein on hand.  I also by the on-hand stuff if I am out.

Since I work out after work, I usually come home and throw some protein (enough for dinner and lunch the next day) under the broiler and while that is cooking I'l eat a small salad and steam up some fresh veggies and there we go! After dinner I will pack up my food for the next day.

In the morning I grab my lunch "bag".  Seriously, this thing is huge!

But, it does hold all my food for the day.  We're talking breakfast, AM snack, lunch, and PM snack.  Usually this thing is full.  Take today, this was all my food and I ate it all.


Cereal (in my favorite to go cereal container), banana, yogurt, salsa, chicken, salad, carrots, and a brown rice tortilla.  It was all eaten by 3pm.

I have about 5 different breakfast meals that I rotate through (Optimum cereal, Ezekiel english muffin with Cashew butter and strawberry with a egg on the side, hard boiled egg with a banana and veggie sausage, greek yogurt with blueberries and a banana).  Snacks are usually veggies, a fruit, hummus and veggies, Wasi crackers and cheese, nuts, or seeds.  Lunch is left overs made into a wrap or into a salad.  And that's it!

Monday, July 18, 2011

Another Monday in the Books

What a day!!  Currently I am laying out on the couch telling myself I am not going to die from my workout but it sure feels like it!

Apparently my knees are back to 100% and so are my workouts.  I don't think I have sweat like that in a long time.  Really, how do those women at the gym do it.  They start looking great and they walk out looking great.  I look like a hot mess when I finish.  If I look normal, I don't think I did anything.  One day, I promise to post a picture as proof.

I was so good and pack my lunch last night, got up this morning and put it in my lunch bag and promptly left it on the counter.  I realized about 15 miles from the house.  DARN!!  Luckily, my boss treated me to lunch at Gordon Biersch.  I was good and got a Veggie pizza and a salad.  I didn't even snack crazy today. All in all, a good day and it showed on the scale.

I always wonder what motivates people to keep working out.  For me, I don't think there is one certain thing.  On days when I feel stressed from work, the thought of going and working out the tension drive me.  On days when I feel tired, it is the adreneline that moves me.  On days when I feel weak, it is the thought of lifting more than I have before, doing more reps than before, running farther than before.  And honestly, on days where I feel not so pretty, I use the Making the Squad episodes I have saved on the DVR.  I know, I'm a little strange.

So what motivates you to get up and work out every day?

Friday, July 15, 2011

One Meal Fits All?

Warning: The irritable 2 year old has made an appearance today.

I woke up late this morning (day 2 of sinus headache) and had to rush to work.  As I got on the highway, I realized my breakfast was on the counter. I ate out of the emergency drawer today and it was a Cliff Builder Bar and brown rice cakes.  Needless to say, by 11am I was FAMISHED. 

A few times a year, the building provides lunch to all tenants and today was the day.  I actually remembered this and didn't pack a lunch.  That was a big mistake.  At 11:30, I was ready to devour someone if I didn't eat soon.  I knew it was going to be BBQ but I figured there would be something there I could eat. WRONG oh so wrong.  out of the 3 sides and 3 meats, I was able to eat chicken. That's it.  So my lunch consisted of this...

Shredded chicken, no sauce looks appealling right?  Why I thought that the building would take into account those in that work here that don't eat that way is beyond me.  I was at least expecting a green salad so I could have chicken and a salad.  Now it is 12:30 and I am still famished.  Had I known there woud be no salad or that every side would be drenched in sugar or mayonaise I would have brought my lunch.  Now my choices are to go downstairs and get food from the cafeteria from hell, stay hungry, or run to Whole Foods (which isn't an option since I have to chauffer my boss around town around 2:30 and can't take the time to leave the office.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Pace not Race

Ah, apparently that was the secret all along! After reading about Cely's 11 mile miracle and seeing her pace I realized if I wanted to up the mileage I didn't need to bust out the 10 minute mile.  Just take it nice and steady and don't look at the clock.

The result was that I was able to go a mile more before my legs decided to fall off and I actually pulled one mile about 15 seconds faster than I normally do. Apparently I was going all out and then taking longer breaks.  Going steady allowed me to go longer and then take walk breaks a little shorter and less.


Now if I could just find a way to make that money tree in the back yard grow we'd be all set!

You know, I really need to start remembering to document my boring life in pictures more.  Of course, today all you would see would be me pulling my hair out and using my 10-key all day.  Sucht a fascinating life I lead!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

It's Back!

My mojo that is!  I'm doing about 75% better today.  I still have a bit of a sensitive stomach but I was able to go do my hour at the gym and not have to run to the restroom or pass out on the floor. In my mind that is a success.

Tomorrow begins the real training and starts bright and early in the morning.  Then a day at work and back to the gym.  I figure, what do I really have to do except for work and work out.  I can commit to this until my birthday to see what happens.

I have been considering supplementing my normal workouts with a few DVDs or  DVD program.  I have been looking at a few and still am not ready to pull the trigger.

I'm going to be short and sweet tonight.  My bed is calling my name and the TV is acting up which means I am going to have to watch Covert Affairs on the computer tomorrow.

Any suggestions or reviews of DVDs would be GREATLY appreciated. 

Monday, July 11, 2011

At Least I Had Good Intentions

This is gonna be the week...after today. I never cancel my training sessions. Today, I had to.  Without going into to many details, let's just say that there was either a bout of food poisoning or a stomach bug in the house.  My stomach was already hard as a rock and I don't think that a hour long sweat fest would mix with not being able to be 10 feet from the restroom.  It coulda been bad....really bad.

Now I am dehydrated and food still doesn't sound appealing.  Dinner tonight was the amazing gourmet meal of corn tortillas and ginger-ale.  Three days of nausea and two days of other things and I am tired of this.  I am ready to work out.

Tomorrow come hell or high water, I am going to the gym and getting my training session in.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Girls Night

Tonight was all about margaritas and catching up. I was all set to document my stumble off the fit train tonight until I got to the restaurant and realized I left my phone on the counter.  Thank goodness we were only about 5 minutes from the house or I would have probably freaked a little.

I think it is strange that I was once able to drive everywhere without a phone and felt perfectly safe.  Now, if I go farther than in the neighborhood without my phone, I stress out.

Point being, there will be no pictures of the drinks, the chips, the dinner, and the dessert.  Probably best because now the only proof is on my butt.

All in all, great night.  You know sometimes it takes someone who has been a friend for 25 years to get you out of a funk.  Talk about someone who knows WAY too much about me.  It's crazy scary to be honest...especially when her daughter is just like we were. I could only hope that she finds a friend as great as her mom is.

Time to hit the hay!

Friday...on Saturday

After a day of work, haircut, Target, and a phone call from a friend overseas I was beat.  So I shall recap a Friday on a Saturday.

Work was work, enough said.  I did learn from my lunch mistake and headed out at lunch to Whole Foods to restock the emergency drawer.  Of course, now I am wishing I would have brought some of that home.

I finally got the mop trimmed after work!  I got it cut a little shorter than I usually do this is about as drastic of a change as I make.

My hairdresser is pregnant (seriously, who around me isn't right now!) and she is due in October.  I am hoping I can time my trims with her due date so I don't have to get too off schedule or have to use someone else.  Selfish much?  I just freak a little about my hair!  I went two years without a cut because my last person left me.  I have a hard time finding someone who can do my hair and once I find them, I don't cheat.

I was planning on heading home after that so I could talk to my friend and try to find some time to meet up when he is home for his 2 week leave.  But something was drawing me to Target!  Nothing like a Friday night stroll through the aisles to unwind!

I went with the specific purpose of getting a new stability ball and ended up with that, some new workout clothes, a puzzle (who just turned into shut in...this girl) to work when it becomes too hot to do anything outside, and my favorite purchase of all...

I had to by the set to get the Wonder Woman class but now I have one I can actually drink out of.  My 1977 glass is a collector and I would die if I broke it.

I came down with a little something last night that completely messed up my stomach (and it continues today) on top of my monthly chocolate craving so I ended up not doing anything the rest of the night.

Same goes for today.  I'm not hungry but I am tired and know food will help.  All I have done today it clean when the urge strikes and work on the puzzle.  Let's just call this a funk and move on.

Tonight is drinks out with a friend so I hope that will jolt me back to the land of the living!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

You Mean Lunch is Important?

I feel like I've been run over with a truck today!

I usually eat something every 2-3 hours to keep myself in check.  After much trial and error I realized if I don't eat then I revert back to the attitude of a tired two year old. It's not a pretty sight.

I was planning to eat lunch around one and was ready to heat up lunch around 12:45 when someone came into my office to tell me that they scheduled a client meeting for 1.  Thank you so much!!! I grabbed a few carrot sticks and a rice cake and then got busy cleaning up my office.  I figured I would be able to eat after my meeting but I ended up swamped until it was time to go. Blah, just blah. Oh well, whatcha gonna do!!

The one good thing was that my client always brings in food.  Today she brought in mini cinnamon rolls and peaches. Usually being famished in a trigger to go for the sugar.  Not good!  I rarely eat refined sugars so a dose of sugar is worse than coffee for me.  As I was opening up the yummy iced goodness something snapped and I stopped mid grab.  Instead it was a peach and a smile for me.

I am home now with no energy to make dinner, no energy to go to the gym and all I want to do is sleep!! I am not going to beat myself up about it though.  I am going to make a sandwich, clean the kitchen, and get to sleep early tonight.  I'll just get a run in tomorrow morning before work.

One more day till the weekend, we can do this!!  Later taters!!

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

My Trainer Hates Me

I swear I must have done something to peeve him off today.  Actually, I think he just likes to see me in pain.  He has been off for about 4 days I am almost certain he spent a good bit of that time making up new tortures for me.

It started with my daily hamstring builders which were a little uncomfortable after someone forgot to roll after their run last night.  From there we moved to ball squats with weight...lots of weight.  No biggie for me.  Then on to abs.  The killer was the ball plank.  My shoulders were jello at the end of the first set.

WAIT!!  I realize why he hates me.  I made him do the same ball plank while I did my bridges...slowly.  Ah, the clients gives it back to the trainer!!

I was invited to head down to Port A for a long weekend.  The only issue is that instead of the 6 hour drive I would have to fly because I don't want to take two days off from work just to drive.  How come I can go to almost anywhere cheaper than I can get a flight to Corpus?  It drives me batty!!  I guess there will be none of this in my future.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

What it's Tuesday?

Was everyone else as off today as I was?

I was planning on waking up early and hitting the gym this morning to do a two a day today.  BIG.FAT.FAIL.  I so blame it on the "friendly" neighbors shooting off fireworks next to my backyard until midnight.  It I wasn't waking up from the boom, the cat was jumping and waiting me up.

Yea, babe, I felt the same way this morning.

Needless to day, I slept in and it felt SO good.  The sleep was what I needed and allowed me to hit the gym this afternoon, where I was all over it....for about 30 minutes.

I swear I hate this Texas summer!!  It's too freaking hot to run outside at 5:30 so I am forced to a treadmill.  Tonight I did 15 minutes on the dreadmill before I got bored.  I then moved to the elliptical where I did 15 minutes before I got bored.  Then back to the dreadmill for another 15 and then said enough is enough.  I need to find some new cardio activities or classes to fill in my time when I can't run outside.  Tomorrow I will be waking up at the butt crack of dawn and getting my run on outside just to avoid cardio at the gym after my training session.

Some friends of mine are in Maui and sent me a picture around 5 of their lunch on the deck with drinks with colored umbrellas.  The first picture I sent them, I can't show on the blog but imagine a scowling face with my hand giving the universal sign for I don't like you!! Then I remembered, they have been gone a week and they have to come back to the real, triple digit heat, adult duties.  This means no drinking in the middle of the day and no more mean pictures.  So I sent this one wishing them a sarcastic meaning of course!

Time to pack the food for work tomorrow (how come I feel like I am either eating, prepping food, or thinking about when I need to eat again).  While I love the way I feel when I eat clean, I end up feeling like a walking restaurant because I carry all my food with me for the whole day.  When I carry the lunch bag in, along with my purse and my gym bag into the office sometimes I think I am a bag lady and not a dedicated finance professional.  Ok, really, you can stop laughing now.  What do they say, fake it till you make it?

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Great Wednesday

What a great day!!  Two more days and then a three day weekend.  I actually have the chose to use Friday at home as a study day.  I am trying to decide if that is what it will be.  It might be that I end up going to the office in the morning and then heading home at lunch.

I woke up this morning and checked my Reader on my phone before getting ready for work and saw the best thing!!  Baking Blonde had a giveaway from Shabby Apple and lo and behold I was the lucky reader!!!  Thank you so much Baking Blonde!!  Can I just say how much a LOVE Shabby Apple.  I mean, look at this...what's not to love?

Image Courtesy of Shabby Apple

I didn't realize how much I needed a wardrobe update until I grabbed one of my two remaining black skirts and the hem was coming out.  I have three and one is at the tailor getting a zipper replaced and now one is being held together with safety pins.  The last one is too big and needs to get a little nip/tuck done to it.  Heck, most of my clothes need a little help from a needle and thread.

So first it was black shoes leaving the closet in mass and now it is black skirts.  I am scared of what is going to start breaking next.

Off to clean the kitchen, watch a little TV and then hit the hay!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Lazy weekend

This was the first weekend in a long time that I had no plans.  It was great to be able to just relax and enjoy the weekend. I am very proud that I didn't become one with the couch.

I had four pair of go-to black heels that were comfortable and worked for work. (Yes, I have a ton more but these were my favorite pairs).  Within the span of a week, I am down to one.  Two are not salvageable and one pair needed new caps.  After I got up early yesterday and washed the car, I took the shoes and a skirt to the tailor to get them repaired and then headed to Dick's to get some new summer appropriate workout  clothes.  Jack pot!!  I now have a new clothes and I am not going to have to wash the same three shirts all week.

Today, I actually planned to get out the weed-eater and get rid of the grass by the house.  I got 5 minutes into it and ran out of line.  Of course I have none as backup so now if I want to finish I am going to have to head to Lowes...on a Sunday.  I deserve a medal and a man servant to come do the lawn for me since I am doing that feat.

After Lowes will be grocery store (again, I must be crazy) and then home to cook everything for next week.  I realized I have been getting off the diet because after I come home from the gym at night I have no energy to cook anything.  I need stuff I can throw in the microwave and eat.  So the plan is to cook all the meats, cut up all the veggies and package all the lunch stuff up.  Wish me luck!!

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Weigh in....nah.

So last week apparently was not a good week. I'm saying it was bloat and moving on.

The good thing about weighing in on Wednesdays is that it feels like the beginning of the weight loss week.  I kind of like being able to start over midweek.

Of course today I am beyond tired. It must be catching because even my trainer was out of it today.  We usually talk the whole we did good to just hold small talk.  I came home and was just awake enough to make dinner.

One thing I love about the single life is the crazy crap I make up to eat each day.  There was a time I followed recipes every night now I just throw stuff together and call it a night.  Tonight it was a chicken breast, black beans, rice and salsa all mixed up and topped with a little cheese.  It wasn't anything special but it hit the spot.  This is also good for emptying out the freezer.  I have enough food to feed an army in there so it is time to eat it down.

Now off to finish watching the TV and cure this sweet tooth...almond butter and honey!!

Monday, June 20, 2011

It finally happened

For the masses that have never seen my kitchen, I have amassed a collection of cookbooks, Clean Eating Magazines, Cooking Light Magazines and various other cooking magazines.  (think 3 shelves work with most of that magazines).  Yes, I know eveery Cooking Light recipe is online but something about pages to turn just keeps me subscribing.  I blame that page love on why I won't go to e-books.  Maybe one day I will change my mind.

Anyway, I have always been good at finding recipes I am looking for...until now.  I am CRAVING a particular shrimp taco.  I swear I blogged about it and even referenced it but no dice.  I thought I put it on my weekly menu plans I keep excpet that I remembered I got crazy and just threw them away.  I thought it was a CL recipe but I can't find it online.

Now when I get home from work and the gym tonight I will be tearing apart my freshly cleaned kitchen looking for that darn recipe.

I promise a post with more purpose later but I just had to get that out. 

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Weigh In Wednesday - on Saturday

Things have been so crazy around here that I haven't had a chance to post anything.

Wednesday - 4 more pounds down.  Another milestone....I had to move the scale to the next lower interval on the bottom side! When I noticed I was as low as I could go without moving it and it was still showing too heavy, I yelled for my trainer to show him!  It was a needed boost let me tell you.  I ended up doing my full hour of training and ran a short mille and a half just to end the day.

Thursday - I had a friend in town and I met up with him at lunch to catch up.  Definitely needed.

Can I just stop there and say this freaking heat is killing me!!!  It is zapping all energy I have and just making me lazy.  Needless to say, I haven't gotten my butt to the gym in a few days.  I am going to go today at sometime before I head out with friends tonight.  I should do my circuit but if I can at least get in cardio, I will be a happy girl.

Other than that, this weekend is all about cleaning the nasty house and spending time with friends and family.

I don't know about anyone else, but I am ready for my 4th of July three day weekend!!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Crazy Weekend

This is the one weekend of the year where my sleep schedule gets WAY off.  This is Le Mans weekend!  I record the whole thing but I watch as much as I can when it comes on live.  Needless to say, I suffered jet lag without even leaving my house.

Can I just say that this chick ROCKS!!

This is my new girl crush...Leena Gade, Lead Engineer of the Audi team that completely rocked it today! I would give anything to have a job like that for my dream team. 

Now it's Mavs time, kitchen clean time, and get food ready for Monday time.  It's been a fun weekend of dreaming of ditching it all and going to work in motorsports but now I need to get back to my number crunching life.  I blame this on missing track days this weekend. I would never miss track days except for...

Baby shower!!  Not for me of course, but for a good friend of mine.  I'm looking forward to meeting the baby next month, but it feels strange going to a baby shower.  Honestly, it just is another glaring image of how much my life is no where near others my age.  But I do enjoy my life and the fun that I have doing what I love. 

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Thursday Thoughts

It has been a long day and I am not sure I can have thoughts longer than bullet points so time for random musings!!

1.  The urge to add to my fur family is getting strong.  I literally almost stopped by Operation Kindness on my way home to look at a golden shih tzu mix they have posted.  But, I just don't think my 15 year old cat would appreciate an addition to the family at this time.  So I am practicing planned parenthood and restraining myself. BTW, Operation Kindness rocks!!  They are one of the two organizations I give to each year (along with the USO....thank you ex-hubby and still great friend for serving!!).

2.  I am just not in the mood to work out tonight so I think it isn't going to happen.  I know what they say, just go and you will be happy you did.  But, right now, I can tell you it isn't happening.  Instead, I am going to clean up the house since it seems I won' t have time this weekend because...

3.  It's baby shower time!!  Some friends and I are hosting a baby shower for one of my besties and I need to decide what kind of stuff to make as food.  The theme is a carnival and apparently most of this was planned without me so I got assigned to bring stuff for a nacho bar?!?!  Ok, whatevs moving on.  Probably a good thing since all of the other food is NOT clean.  The last shower we had, I didn't bring any food and I ended up not eating the whole time.  So the nacho bar is going to include some things that are clean so I can eat that sans chips.

4.  The urge to achieve something is back. I got so adjusted to doing school work while getting the never ending MBA that now I am ready to tackle another piece of paper.  Part of cleaning tonight is getting back in my office (I literally shut the door after my last final and haven't been in since) and get ready to get my work certifications and then my CFA.  I must be losing my mind.

5.  I need to get in the habit of picture taking more so I can have something on here worth looking at.

6.  I need to spend more time blogging is anything, to help improve my writing. I spend so much time now crunching numbers that I forgot how to actually write.  I was once pretty good and I really want to get back to it.

7.  DUDE!!!  Sometimes it REALLY helps to check your blog settings every now and again.  Way back in the day, I changed my URL and apparently when I did, I took off Analytics.  I went to reload it and I kept getting the error that the code wasn't installed.  Hello??  I coded in a previous life so I know it was installed correctly.  Dig a little deeper and I realize that somehow the blog was restricted so no one could view it!  That answers SO many questions.

Seven is apparently all I have tonight.  I'm off to find something for dinner, clean the office a little and then enjoy the Mavs game and hope they don't cause me to have a heart attack again!

Later Taters!!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Weigh Me Wednesday

Crazy, crazy last few weeks.

Being so crazy, I was scared to step on the scale tonight.  I have been making a good choice of food, but just not writing it down or counting the calories of it.  However, I must have done something right since I lost 4 pounds!!

I'm working with a strained leg muscle right now so my knee hasn't been cooperating but slowly I am getting back.  I hope to be able to start back to a little bit more high intensity cardio tomorrow.  Along with massive amount of foam rolling of course!

This week has been all about the schedule.  Getting to bed earlier (minus Mavs game nights of course) and waking up at 5am to get to work on time.  This week is just about getting in the habit of getting up early.  Next week, I am going to try and add in morning workouts to the mix.  We shall see though.

I have decided to try and make it to my goal weight by my birthday in a few months.  No matter what I have decided that my birthday will consist of taking the day off of work and treating myself.  Massage, facial, pedicure, and shopping!  The shopping part is why I hope to get to goal.  I really want to get a new outfit that shows all of my hard work.  That day is also the day I am going to hand my trainer my before and after photos so we can see the difference.  It definitely is something to work towards!!

Bed time for me. Until tomorrow.

Friday, June 3, 2011

Friday, I've missed you so!!

It was a crazy day at the office and I am SO glad to be home.

The day that started bad actually got a little better.  We are looking to bring on contractors for a few open sales roles and one of them is trying to negotiate his pay.  My job is to analyze his numbers with my internal numbers and come to a fair distribution.  It's what I do and crave...analysis and profitability studies.  (yep, call me a nerd now!)

Anywho, this particular gentleman seemed to think I was the secretary and I use that term hating it but that is how he viewed me. I called him and asked him for the numbers that he didn't give to me the day we met (but he gave to all the men).  He ended up sending my boss. I sent him back a really sweet email, letting him know that my boss forwarded me his email and I would be working it this weekend.  I then signed my email with MBA at the end of my name and putting Director in my title.  He called me back in 5 minutes and I didn't answer.  He called back and I still didn't answer.  I listened to his message on the way home.

The "women's role" is something I have leaned to deal with rather effectively in my industry.  It still kills me that people see women as not able to handle complex finance and investments but if I let every older gentleman bug me, I would be a bug all day long.

Well, just got back from being good at dinner out with friends so now it is time to take out the contacts and enjoy the couch a little before heading to bed for an early start tomorrow.

Monday, May 30, 2011

The Alternative

I'm watching the new Extreme Makeover show and a comment this girl said made me think.  I believe her comment was "if I didn't get this chance I would have had the lap band surgery" or something to that effect.

I want to preface this with this...these are my own opinions.  I am do not know your situation.  It is just how I feel take it or leave it.

I am opposed to weight loss surgery.  While I have not been struggling with my weight for my whole life, I have been dealing with it for 10+ years.  I knew what eating healthy and working out were.  I was lazy.  Add on to that and I was dealing with some major emotional issues. This is not the place to start that conversation but let's say it took 4 years of therapy to get my brain to where it was.  I consider the decision to finally get my weight back under control a phase of therapy so to speak.  I had to get my brain where it is before I decided to do something.

When I started my journey to weight loss, I had someone ask me why I just didn't get "that surgery" and be done with it.  WHAT!!  To me, that is not an option.  I didn't put this weight on over night and it is only natural for it not to come off over night. I sweat my butt off every day, I work on my diet, I learned what works for me and what doesn't in terms of exercise and nutrition.  I have learned how to not let my emotions inhibit my efforts.  I know I have to learn a new lifestyle.  I have to change.  A surgery won't do it for me.

While I am sure there are those who it works for, the people I know who have had it have used it as the easy way.  I know them well enough to know there are learned bad habits at play and life issues at hand that have not been handled.  I spent a week with two of them.  The topic of conversation was their complication and life after the surgery...all while using their precious little food they are allowed on junk food and wine.  How is that helping!  What are you learning? These two, don't exercise and have done nothing to change other than go under the knife.  Why would you think this would be a long term solution if you aren't learning to live healthy?

All I can say is if surgery is your option, use it and learn and lose the weight and change your habits and life.  User is at a tool to change your life, don't use it as THE life change.

Just my thoughts....but comments are getting turned off.  I don't need a debate on my opinion.  It isn't changing.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Quick Update

It's late, I'm tired, but I felt the need to post tonight.

Last night around here was rough weather-wise.  Thank goodness I didn't sustain any damage but some people were not so lucky.  The only thing that was damaged last night was my sleep and apparently my wake up time this morning.  The electricity must have gone out and my alarm went with it. I noticed when it was 7:30 and I was waking up when I should have been leaving.

The eating has been amazing this week!  I even went to a work lunch yesterday and they chose Mexican.  I was able to resist the chips and ordered the lite fajitas which was basically grilled chicken and steamed broccoli.  I didn't even crave my usual foods.  I have stayed away from sugar and haven't even been tempted.  I credit it with actually bringing my food with me and eating every few hours.

Another great thing that has helped me is watching the weight melt off.  Seriously, I had read that clean eating helps but wow!!  From Monday - Wednesday I have seen in go down by 3 pounds.  I know the fluctuation is normal but I honestly can't wait until official weigh day on Monday to see what I have done.  It is motivation in and of itself to keep going.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Being Good is Tiring

Oh my!!!

I felt like all I did today was either eat, decide when to eat, cook, or workout.  It is going to take some time to get the hang of making all my food and carrying it with me but I am gonna do it.

Overall, it was a good day!  I never got hungry and I was able to try a few new things.  I am going to have to figure out how to do this a little cheaper but overall, we're looking good.

With student loan payments coming up, I think it is second job time.  I found some at the gym and I am going to go up there tomorrow to apply.  It is actually at another gym (associated with mine) so I hope I can apply and get it.  It would give me additional money as well as training discounts!  I talked to my trainer about it tonight and he said it was 50% off the price.  Yippee!!!

I am actually going to be getting a raise in June but I am starting to think that for a while I need to get a second job regardless to build the savings back up and pay for a few other things I am working on.  I can get upset about it but I think I am going to look at it as a chance to build up my bank and get the cushion back.

Is This the Right Track?

Lately, I feel like I hav been on more of a healthy subway system than a train.  I hop on and off so much that it is making me dizzy. No wonder I have been on a plateau for so long. 

I decided that this week, I was going to give 100% and see what happend.  Saturday I headed to Central Market and avoided all the things that normally bring me to my knees....cheese please!! I got all the veggies that I needed and a few of the other things I can only get there are at Whole Foods (which I rarely go to).  Let's just say, my fridge looks like a mini garden now. 

The  best part of my Central Market experience was that I took my mom.  She had never been so it was nice to be able to take her to experience it.  I told her the scary thing about all of the veggies and food I got was that most of it would be gone by the end of the week.  Crazy that one person can eat that much, but really I do.  It's the difference between heathly food and junk food.

I was good and packed all my food for the day last night so this morning when I woke up late as usual, all I had to do was throw it in my cooler bag and go. 

So what is this all in thing I am doing you ask?  Well, it is back to the gym for some serious workouts this week; no excuses gotta do it.  As for the food, I am back to a 100% clean diet.  That means no sugar, only whole foods, minimal processed food, and small meals throughout the day.  I don't claim to be an expert on any "diet" and I actually hate that word.  My eating plan is not a diet, it is the way I choose to eat and what I found has worked for my physical and MENTAL well being.  I am very in tune with my body and the inputs versus the outputs (mood, energy, strength, etc.).  Health issues have made me be this way and honestly I love it.

Anywho, so I am back on a good meal plan and exercising.  When I get tempted to go hit up the candy drawer at work, I know that I have food in the fridge that I can eat. Also when the M&M urge starts overtaking the yogurt I have with me, I start telling myself  1X2 is the goal and you can do it.  I am my own best/worst cheerleader.

Back to work.  Soon, I will be adding more about how I eat, the workout successes and failures all with pics to keep myself accountable!!  Slowly but surely my blog is finding a purpose in my life.