Monday, May 14, 2012

What I've Been Up To

It feels like forever since I have posted anything!!  I had good reason though...I was job hunting!

I have been on the new job for 3 weeks now and it is night an day better than where I was.  Sure, it's scary and a completely new challenge but I am ready for it.

Now that the job worry is out of the way and as a result, I can plan better, I am ready to get back in the swing of things as far as the workouts and the diet.

The workouts are slow to progress due to a little incident with a parking lot, a flip flop, a rain.  Graceful me stopped at the corner store to indulge in some chocolate milk and decide to show off my splits in the parking lot. I ended up tripping and completely turning in my foot.  I have NEVER felt pain like that in my foot!  After two days of it hurting I did what any sane adult would do and went on vacation.  A vacation that included a lot of walking and daily workouts and a final night in 4 inch heels.  Can you say STUPID STEPH!!  I ended up at the sports med doctor after I got back and in a boot for 3 weeks.  I took it off and now I am trying to get my foot back up to speed so to speak and start working out the way I am used to.  I plan on starting it easy with walking on the treadmill and then seeing where that goes.  All I can say is I will never be as happy as the day I can actually run again.  Now that is something I thought I would never say!

Food.  Right now my schedule is so planned out that I have even included food on my schedule.  I know what I am eating and when I am eating it every day.  (OCD much??)  The only days I eat out are either lunch on Monday or Tuesday.  I don't worry about one of those days because my new office rocks and the cafeteria serves Cooking Light recipes on those two days!  Having 6 years of the magazine here, I am able to remember most of the recipes they are making.  I have even been able to try some of the recipes that I have been wanting to make.  Other than that, I have been really good and bringing my food with me.

Let's just hope that watching the food, getting back into the workouts, and reducing the stress will help me get rid of this pesky weight that crept back up.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

I can't even cheat right!!

I decided to splurge a little and cook Orange Shrimp tonight.  It was good but it was missing something; I got the spice but not the sweet in it.  I figured I was just going to have to tweet the recipe the next time I made it.  After I finished cleaning up the kitchen I realized I was going to have to undo the tweak I did and cook the recipe. I forgot the orange marmalade!!  No wonder it wasn't sweet.  It has been a day like that all day long.

As a result, that recipe won't be reviewed until I cook it right.

Other than that, things have been kind of blah around here lately.  There are big things happening but until they are set in stone I have to keep a lid on it.  As a result, there isn't much going on that I can talk about in that arena.

Workouts are going good.  Although I know I need to put more into it.  I need to start getting out of bed on time so I can hit the gym before work but the comfort of bed is so nice!! Possibly starting to get to bed earlier will pay off and get me back in shape.

I promise better posts coming.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Remembering The Lesson


 (My Monday smile present to myself today.  Sometimes you have to buy yourself flowers!)


This weekend was a great unwind and de-stress weekend.  I think I needed it in the worst way since I have been stressing over everything around here lately.  So much that I can't sleep and I feel sick a lot. 

Something interesting happened today.  It was wonderful and it made me cry so much and I am so happy.


Back up though, and let me tell you about Sunday (I promise it has a part of the bigger story).  I was at the track doing my monthly HPDE thing.  I woke up on time on Sunday and was able to go to "church" services that the event organizers put on.  To be honest, I usually pick sleep over this service because I am so tired, but something woke me up, got me there and walked me into the service. I listened to the video that was playing as well as a few people telling their stories.  The lesson to breathe and to remember who is in charge and what is important in life hit me.  It made me realize how much I have been stressing over things lately and how it was effecting me and everyone around me. I remembered I do need to leave it all up to God and to stop trying to fight his plan. At the closing prayer, it was so hard for me to hold back the tears.  I succeeded though (I couldn't show the girly side around a bunch of guys!!).

 I enjoyed the rest of the weekend, and didn't think about what is, what might be, or what is coming.  I enjoyed the present and just breathed it all in.  I prayed on Sunday night to believe and just let go of the worry of my job potentially being gone at the end of this month and all the scary things that brings with it.

This morning, I got a call from an organization I had previously interviewed with over a month ago asking me to come back in for a final interview.  The crocodile tears came fast and hard and I was so happy and excited and saying prayers of thanks.  An hour later, I got a call from another organization wanting me to come in for an interview.  Even now, I am truly amazed. 

Lesson learned....quit fighting, keep trying, and it all works out the way it is supposed to. 

At lunch I decided to head over to Whole Foods for a big salad.  Yummy, I was craving veggies!


Now to get in a few more hours of work, head to the gym, and enjoy my night of house cleaning.  Yea house cleaning!!  (I wish sarcasm was easily conveyed in this thing).

Friday, February 3, 2012

So Tired

I am so glad the sun made an appearance today or else I would have ended up passing out on the couch this afternoon.

Yesterday was a LONG day.  I had to go to Houston for work.  Let me tell you Houston trips are NO fun. I ended up getting to my office around 9, leaving at 11 to stop by and get a few things for my car and visit with a friend, left for Houston at 1pm.  Got to Houston at 5 for a presentation that night, finished the presentation and then got back on the road to come home. Really wish they would have told me I would be driving the way back because had I known, I would have taken a nap on the way down.  This was my view the entire 4 hours home except I was in the other seat.  (No, I did not take this while driving!)


No highway lights, not much traffic and each mile creeping by SLOWLY. I didn't get home till 1am.  In order to stay awake for the drive I ended up going full sugar, full caffeine.  It didn't get out of my system until 2am.  The alarm woke me up at 5:30am.  So TIRED does not even begin to describe it. And I am about to do it all over again. :(

However, the highlight of my trip was a stop to the must stop at BBQ/gas station!  In the I-45 war between Buc-ee's and Woody's, I am a true Woody's fan. There.Is.No.Comparison.


Jerky, smoked meats, jars of stuff, and sugar galore.  It's the only thing that makes a trip down there bearable.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

I Blame It On Stress

I blame my complete lack of willpower today on stress.  Of course I am getting ahead of myself a little.

The day started very relaxed with a massage.  Yes, you read that right.  Before work I went and had a massage.  Not the brightest thing I have done but you gotta get the muscles worked when you can.

It's the best part of my therapy plan for my back and crazy muscle issues.  I finally got tired of being able to work out at 100% for a week and then something being strained or aching (past the normal ache) and having to lay off for a week or so.  I caved and went to the chiropractor and now have adjustments and massages as part of the plan to get my knots worked out and everything back in place.



Can I just say that this was not a calming back rub but a knead the knots out, pressure filled adventure.  I mean, I like a deep massage but this took the cake...but it felt SOOO good. The next one is next week.  Hopefully with that one I can push it out a few more weeks and slowly build back to an every 6 weeks thing. I also learned a bunch of new stretches to try.

And I really should have tried them more today instead of giving into what I gave into to release the stress.

I ended up having to work tonight so I had to grab dinner on the go.  I love my Freebirds so I was able to get a small burrito with protein and tons of veggies and NO cilantro rice (which the other burrito place which shall go un-named has).  I can not stand cilantro. It's one of the few things I just can't get down.

Anywho, did great on my dinner choice until I got to the cash register and saw my favorite thing...chocolate.  Not just chocolate but this....


Yes, you are reading that right.  I figured hey, I'm stressed I need something to make me happy and of course "brownies" will make me happy.  And yes, I am not saying the actual name of them on this blog because the last thing I need is to become the #1 page that comes up when people Google those two words.  Needless to say, it made me happy.  I felt no guilt in eating it.  And, just so you know where it really gets it's name....

 It's baked in a round dish people to give it the shape of  being cooked in a pot.  I might go pretty organic and healthy but I do draw the line on certain natural mood enhancers.

I got home around 9 and have been working on a business plan for a new venture and my brain is full of ideas but the tired is starting to set in.  A few more paragraphs and I think it's time to call it a night.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Day One With a New Back

I woke up this morning feeling like a new person.  Not sure if it was because my back felt better or because I got 8 hours of sleep without the cat waking my up in the middle of the night by walking on top of me. It's the way it is with a 16 year old spoiled rotten fur ball and I would't have it any other way.

Today was a rainy, cold, dark day here in my area. I left for work 30 minutes early and got there 30 minutes later than usual.  Thank you flooding and drivers who can't drive in the rain. Very fun drive let me tell you.  Needless to say, I didn't get out for lunch today for my usual walk around the building. In fact, I didn't even eat lunch today.  I was so worked up and nervous about some pretty big things and completely lost my appetite.

Once I got home from work I really thought about the fact that I hadn't had lunch and had to go work out. Bad move to have a protein drink with milk. The tummy was NOT doing too good around the end.  But I did get a small workout with my trainer (the back is still healing so I am limited in what I can do) and a little HIIT on the elliptical afterwards. By the way, if  you need motivation to keep going during cardio, pick the machine in between two people who are going slow as molasses on a 8 incline and a 1 resistance.  The competitive person in my pumped the incline and resistance up and took off.  It felt great.  I wasn't in the mood to do any cardio after work but it felt so good to work off some of the stress.

I have been craving pizza for two days so tonight I gave in.  BUT!!!! I did it as healthy as I could.  Palio's small gluten free classic with chicken, garlic, and basil and a salad. I had self control and didn't eat it all tonight (although I could have easily) and saved enough for lunch tomorrow.


Tomorrow will be a better day.  Keep saying it until it's true.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Still Walking

Went to the back cracker today and boy did the back crack.  It still is a little sore but I know I am working on it and it will get better.  Needless to say, tonight was a rest night on the couch.  Last thing I want to do is to mess up what the chiropractor did this afternoon.

Today, my office was what I affectionately refer to as the "TB Ward". My office is in between two others; two others whose occupants both have some sort of a bug that involves coughing and hacking.  I almost wanted to walk out after being there all of 10 minutes.  I thought I was going to have to be locked into my office all day (which then becomes a closet).  Thank goodness I remembered these were in my gym back in the car.


Yea for Pandora and earphones!  I survived but rarely left my office all day.  The last thing I need is to get whatever these two have passed around.  I have big plans on Thursday and they include my favorite 6 month old and lots of cuddling.

Completely off subject...I, like everyone else am guilty of killing time on Pinterest.  I have one pin that I pinned over a month ago and it still gets pinned everyday.  It is my most pinned item.


Glad to see the plaid is still rocking!!

Monday, January 23, 2012

I Curse the Foam Roller

I completely cursed the foam roller tonight!!  I could have rolled for 30 minutes and not gotten the knots out.  I have never had a side plank ruined by a tight IT band until tonight. All in all though, great Monday workout. 45 minutes of cardio followed by a 30 minute Tabata session with the trainer.  My legs are toast, by shoulders are toast, I am toast.

I have decided that this week is all about the crockpot in terms of cooking.  I did freak out a little when I came home from work and smelled food cooking. I completely forgot that I started dinner before I went to work.  It was such a great thing to come home from the gym and not have to think about dinner.  Now I just have to think about packing lunch for tomorrow and getting dishes washed.

So my back is not really better so I decided to go to a Chiropractor for the first time and see what they can do.  I think part of it is my hips are a little outta whack due to some muscle tightness.  Bonus is that the chiropractor has a massage therapist on staff.  If the Dr. adds a massage component to my treatment, I can finally get a massage included!  I NEED a massage in the worst way!  Full recap of the back cracking tomorrow.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Must.Eat

Can I just say that the Booty Buster workout mention in my last post almost took a literal meaning tonight and it should also be called the Booty Buster/Calf Killer.  Anywho, after finishing one round of the workout, I decided to do 15 minutes of HIIT as well. After I got off that machine I literally was walking funny and my toes felt strange.  Just the motion of the Elliptical caused a surreal experience when I first tried to walk.  It took about 2 minutes till I just felt sore.

So here is my dilemma...after a heavy workout I have no desire to refuel.  The thought of food just isn't appealing to me. I came home and tried to eat dinner and nothing sounded good.  3 hours later and still nothing sounds good.  The only thing I could stomach was the Dark Chocolate Almond Milk.  I even have food already made in the fridge. :(  I know I need to figure this out it's just hard making myself eat when I am not hungry.  I partially blame it on the mental mindset I gave myself through years of dieting.  So hard to change that and eat for fuel and eat enough as opposed to starving and eating less.

Other than that, just a typical day around the town.  Did the work thing, did the drive home thing and repeat tomorrow.  Yea for boring and normal.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

And We're Sidelined

Do you ever feel like you start so good only to keep being sidelined?  This week was all about getting it done, busting my butt, and getting things moving.  Then the straw came and broke the camel's back so to speak.  Technically it is my back that got wrenched.

It started when I went out to lunch with a friend on Monday. Bony butt + hard chair + my not being able to sit still = pinched nerve. Now, add that result to massive cleaning and moving around the house + a killer workout = pulled back.

It was killer at work so bad that I modified my desk at the office to work standing up. I guess it did help me to get a little bit of a workout in.  I might just do that each day just to get some lunges and calf raises in.

However, before I put the straw on my back, I did end up doing my 30 minutes of training along with 40 minutes of the Booty Buster Elliptical Workout from Bess.  Goodness gracious...looks are deceiving.  I will be heading back in for a rematch with that workout tomorrow morning before work.

I figure that holding out and just rolling and stretching tonight will make my back a little better and then I can get back to it tomorrow.  I just don't want to lose that motivation.  I have a goal and a dream and it feels good to get that back.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Mental Workout Day

Note to self: Do not schedule a training session on the same day as an interview...a 2 and a half hour interview!

After I finished that marathon brain drain, I could barely think of my own name, my voice was gone, and the tension headache from finally relaxing after 3 days came on...hard.  But, I am proud that I pushed though and went ahead and went and got my butt kicked.  The workout was actually pretty easy tonight.  Not sure if my trainer was taking it easy on me or if I just didn't have the mental capacity to protest and feel the pain.

It could have possibly been the Spanx pantyhose I wore all day that went ahead and made my abs mush.  My word!!  I forgot how icky pantyhose were.  If anything the "happy" layer they were holding in was a reminder to keep getting myself into the gym and getting rid of the holiday face stuffing pounds.

Speaking of getting back on track, I am sure everyone has heard of Pinterest by now.  I have so many yummy looking recipes (most of them healthy) posted that I want to try.  I decided to try one a week and then if I enjoyed it and would make it again, I would move it over to the Recipe Box Board.  If I didn't like it, it was gone.

I have one moved over and I have one more to review and move.  I think I will be getting a review of them up on here shortly along with my own pictures and ideas for future modifications.  Not really doing this for anyone but me, and the fact that I have a whole baking rack full of recipes that I can never find where they are when I want a repeat.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Good Luck Count...Three Days

I'm starting to think it's all a frame of mind and I seem to be rocking it.  I am still scared it is going to cave in, but I just have to put faith where I know it belongs and it will all work out.  But that doesn't mean I will be talking about it.  I still believe you can jinx yourself.

Let's just say that this weekend I will be studying for a very important meeting next week.  One I really want to excel at.

I headed to the gym tonight and busted out a 20 minute HIIT cardio session on the treadmill before hitting my 30 minute training session where yet again I did a Tabata session.  Why is it when I workout like that I have no appetite?  I know I need to eat something but I really can't think of anything that even sounds remotely appealing to my tummy.

Is it just me or has this week felt like a full week even with Monday off?  I am SO ready to be home for a full weekend...well almost a full weekend.  Tomorrow I am helping a friend celebrate her birthday and then spending the night at the parentals.  I just hope I can sleep in a little at their place on Saturday.

This week, food wise had be a completely vegetarian week and I must say, I will be making some of the recipes I have made this week again.  Specifically, the Veggie Strudel from Proud Italian Cook.  NOT my picture but you get the idea. SO GOOD!!  I modified mine because the thought of eggplant just doesn't set well with me.  I ended up roasting zucchini, yellow squash, carrot, red pepper and onion. Next time I might try making a balsamic reduction for it as well.  In terms of the cheese, I used what was available in the cheese drawer (yes, I have a cheese drawer).  I used fontina, parmesan, and string cheese sticks (mental note, get more mozzarella).

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Ready or Not...

It's time to embrace 2012 and get on with it!

I figured it was time  to jump on the bandwagon and figure out what I want to accomplish this year.  Without further ado...

1.  Get the plastic paid off.  This basically means that everything extra I have is going to go to paying off that debt.  I also entails watching my budget like a hawk.  It will be nice to finally get that debt paid off and be done with it. Once that is done then it is on to dreaded student loan debt. :(

2. Recommit to working out.  I went off the wagon BIG TIME the last two months of the year and not it is time to get back on track.  I plan the first two months to lose what I gained in my sugar binge.  After that, it is going to be more about pushing myself to do what I didn't think I could instead of trying to lose X pounds.

3. Cook, cook, and cook.  Part of helping the first two goals is to start back to cooking all my meals again.  I think this time I am going to try to spice it up and not get bored by doing new themes each week. This week as been all vegetarian.  Trust me, it is helping to clean out the junk I ate.

4.  Read 24 books this year.  I will shortly be updating my What I Read for 2012.  One of the books I will read is the Bible...cover to cover.  Thanks to my Nook (present from the maternal unit), it is easier to do.

5.  Create the Cookbook.  I read an article around Christmas time about preserving family recipes and I loved the idea. My Grandma created a book about 20 years ago and time has taken its toll on it from use.  This year, I want to recreate all of the recipes in the book, photograph it, and then create a true book from it for everyone in the family.  My plan is to use these as Christmas presents this year.

6.  Relax.  This is more a pledge to stop worrying and put it all in God's hands.  I stress over things I shouldn't stress about and I worry too much.  I need to remember that there is a plan for my life and I need to trust it is the right path.