Tuesday, February 21, 2012

I can't even cheat right!!

I decided to splurge a little and cook Orange Shrimp tonight.  It was good but it was missing something; I got the spice but not the sweet in it.  I figured I was just going to have to tweet the recipe the next time I made it.  After I finished cleaning up the kitchen I realized I was going to have to undo the tweak I did and cook the recipe. I forgot the orange marmalade!!  No wonder it wasn't sweet.  It has been a day like that all day long.

As a result, that recipe won't be reviewed until I cook it right.

Other than that, things have been kind of blah around here lately.  There are big things happening but until they are set in stone I have to keep a lid on it.  As a result, there isn't much going on that I can talk about in that arena.

Workouts are going good.  Although I know I need to put more into it.  I need to start getting out of bed on time so I can hit the gym before work but the comfort of bed is so nice!! Possibly starting to get to bed earlier will pay off and get me back in shape.

I promise better posts coming.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Remembering The Lesson

 (My Monday smile present to myself today.  Sometimes you have to buy yourself flowers!)

This weekend was a great unwind and de-stress weekend.  I think I needed it in the worst way since I have been stressing over everything around here lately.  So much that I can't sleep and I feel sick a lot. 

Something interesting happened today.  It was wonderful and it made me cry so much and I am so happy.

Back up though, and let me tell you about Sunday (I promise it has a part of the bigger story).  I was at the track doing my monthly HPDE thing.  I woke up on time on Sunday and was able to go to "church" services that the event organizers put on.  To be honest, I usually pick sleep over this service because I am so tired, but something woke me up, got me there and walked me into the service. I listened to the video that was playing as well as a few people telling their stories.  The lesson to breathe and to remember who is in charge and what is important in life hit me.  It made me realize how much I have been stressing over things lately and how it was effecting me and everyone around me. I remembered I do need to leave it all up to God and to stop trying to fight his plan. At the closing prayer, it was so hard for me to hold back the tears.  I succeeded though (I couldn't show the girly side around a bunch of guys!!).

 I enjoyed the rest of the weekend, and didn't think about what is, what might be, or what is coming.  I enjoyed the present and just breathed it all in.  I prayed on Sunday night to believe and just let go of the worry of my job potentially being gone at the end of this month and all the scary things that brings with it.

This morning, I got a call from an organization I had previously interviewed with over a month ago asking me to come back in for a final interview.  The crocodile tears came fast and hard and I was so happy and excited and saying prayers of thanks.  An hour later, I got a call from another organization wanting me to come in for an interview.  Even now, I am truly amazed. 

Lesson learned....quit fighting, keep trying, and it all works out the way it is supposed to. 

At lunch I decided to head over to Whole Foods for a big salad.  Yummy, I was craving veggies!

Now to get in a few more hours of work, head to the gym, and enjoy my night of house cleaning.  Yea house cleaning!!  (I wish sarcasm was easily conveyed in this thing).

Friday, February 3, 2012

So Tired

I am so glad the sun made an appearance today or else I would have ended up passing out on the couch this afternoon.

Yesterday was a LONG day.  I had to go to Houston for work.  Let me tell you Houston trips are NO fun. I ended up getting to my office around 9, leaving at 11 to stop by and get a few things for my car and visit with a friend, left for Houston at 1pm.  Got to Houston at 5 for a presentation that night, finished the presentation and then got back on the road to come home. Really wish they would have told me I would be driving the way back because had I known, I would have taken a nap on the way down.  This was my view the entire 4 hours home except I was in the other seat.  (No, I did not take this while driving!)

No highway lights, not much traffic and each mile creeping by SLOWLY. I didn't get home till 1am.  In order to stay awake for the drive I ended up going full sugar, full caffeine.  It didn't get out of my system until 2am.  The alarm woke me up at 5:30am.  So TIRED does not even begin to describe it. And I am about to do it all over again. :(

However, the highlight of my trip was a stop to the must stop at BBQ/gas station!  In the I-45 war between Buc-ee's and Woody's, I am a true Woody's fan. There.Is.No.Comparison.

Jerky, smoked meats, jars of stuff, and sugar galore.  It's the only thing that makes a trip down there bearable.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

I Blame It On Stress

I blame my complete lack of willpower today on stress.  Of course I am getting ahead of myself a little.

The day started very relaxed with a massage.  Yes, you read that right.  Before work I went and had a massage.  Not the brightest thing I have done but you gotta get the muscles worked when you can.

It's the best part of my therapy plan for my back and crazy muscle issues.  I finally got tired of being able to work out at 100% for a week and then something being strained or aching (past the normal ache) and having to lay off for a week or so.  I caved and went to the chiropractor and now have adjustments and massages as part of the plan to get my knots worked out and everything back in place.

Can I just say that this was not a calming back rub but a knead the knots out, pressure filled adventure.  I mean, I like a deep massage but this took the cake...but it felt SOOO good. The next one is next week.  Hopefully with that one I can push it out a few more weeks and slowly build back to an every 6 weeks thing. I also learned a bunch of new stretches to try.

And I really should have tried them more today instead of giving into what I gave into to release the stress.

I ended up having to work tonight so I had to grab dinner on the go.  I love my Freebirds so I was able to get a small burrito with protein and tons of veggies and NO cilantro rice (which the other burrito place which shall go un-named has).  I can not stand cilantro. It's one of the few things I just can't get down.

Anywho, did great on my dinner choice until I got to the cash register and saw my favorite thing...chocolate.  Not just chocolate but this....

Yes, you are reading that right.  I figured hey, I'm stressed I need something to make me happy and of course "brownies" will make me happy.  And yes, I am not saying the actual name of them on this blog because the last thing I need is to become the #1 page that comes up when people Google those two words.  Needless to say, it made me happy.  I felt no guilt in eating it.  And, just so you know where it really gets it's name....

 It's baked in a round dish people to give it the shape of  being cooked in a pot.  I might go pretty organic and healthy but I do draw the line on certain natural mood enhancers.

I got home around 9 and have been working on a business plan for a new venture and my brain is full of ideas but the tired is starting to set in.  A few more paragraphs and I think it's time to call it a night.